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TW: my ED got me a store modeling job at 17.. Deeply saddened yet flattered.

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#1 ·
Hi everyone,

Please be advised.. Huge trigger warning - suicide and anorexia.

Two weeks ago I attempted suicide which put me in a bad physical state for at least a week. Not to mention the emotional wreck it caused me to fail. I am very sad, and have no purpose in life. I've shut down every help they offered - will continue to shut down although my mom finally decides to take me back into therapy after going cold turkey from meds and therapy two years ago. I've been hospitalized for other attempts (seven hospitalizations in total since I was 14, and 17 now).

I have been refusing to go anywhere and following an egg mono diet for the past 3 days - because I gained weight after the ER. I went from 105 pounds to 98 (I am 5'4).. Now I am switching over to Tuna mono for 3 days - which should keep me in ketosis as well.

Finally yesterday, I decided to leave the house. So I went to the mall. I went into this store and the owner of the chain stores was there because they were just reopening the store. He told me that I should model for the store and their website online..

I said yes, because I thought it was an opportunity for me. But I am not sure about it. At the same time I always wanted to go to school and become a therapist (which would make me unbelievably proud of myself).

However, I don't want to have to graduate from high school, be deeply unhappy and then say "I graduated" and call it a life.

I am starting the modeling process today. If it gets serious then I am going to LA for a photo shoot. (I live about 45 mins north of LA, so I am a local.)

Any advice, suggestions?

Anything would help at this point, thanks. :)
 
#2 ·
I'd do it and see where it takes you.

Modeling and school are not mutually exclusive.

You can always change your mind later if you don't like it, or if you find it to be bad for your mental health

or you can do both! Modeling isn't a lifelong career plan, but then, I don't think humans were meant to have only one career in our whole lives. It's no wonder people get bored and discontent. There's too much pressure in our society on 17-year-olds. You're supposed to have your whole future figured out and know what you want to do with your lives. No. Do what you feel like doing now, and don't burn any bridges.

Meantime, distractions can be good. I hope you get the therapy you need. It's really unforgivable that your mom hasn't taken you already
 
#4 ·
Well being a model once doesn't mean you have to make it a career.
Also even if you did get an agency you can still go to school? It's not like modeling is clocking out 9-5. Usually you get something once in a few weeks / months for two days. Let's not be too dramatic. There is another -7 year old model who has good grades while being in an agency.
 
#5 ·
Go for it! You're so lucky that you got a break like that! Even if you decide not to pursue it, it could help you pay for school if you're good at it. Just study up and be careful of scams-there are a lot of creepers out there, but there's tons of information for beginning models to help you get on the right track.
 
#6 ·
Like the other ladys said, "GO FOR IT!", but keep education going as well even just 1 or 2 classes a semester add up over the years, and if your studying or going to class it'll keep you busy, which I find keeps my mind off of eating.
 
#10 · (Edited by Moderator)
My friend modeled all the way through college and it helped her a lot with paying bills. No offense, but you're only 5'4 (I'm the same height!) so your options as a model are slim to none (not trying to be offensive! They don't like petite girls). I would say take the opportunity and see where it takes you! But if you don't want to do it, just say no. :)