So basicly I lived with my abusive mother untill January and she didnt give a shit about me. She noticed that I lost like 60 pounds, she just didn't give a shit. She never took me to the doctor, I went like 2 years without seeing a doctor or a dentist. When I do go to the doctor I lie and tell her I never tried to lose weight but I think she thinks I'm anorexic.
I don't want to be diagnosed though, I dont know why people want to have a diagnosis because then you have a chance of being sent to inpatent. I want it to stay a secret from everyone. When I went to the doctor a few months ago she attempted to diagnose me but im so good at lying that I convinced her that I never tried to lose weight and that I eat normally. Im really proud of it.
IM scared shitless of what would happen if they were to find out.
It has to be a secret, its my biggest secret and they will never see through my lies.
Even when I was 93 pounds I was able to lie enough to get myself out of it, blaming my low weight on pnumonia when in fact I was 98 pounds already before I even got sick.
I just don't understand why some people are so desperate to be diagnosed as anorexic, for me it is my biggest fear...
I don't want to be diagnosed though, I dont know why people want to have a diagnosis because then you have a chance of being sent to inpatent. I want it to stay a secret from everyone. When I went to the doctor a few months ago she attempted to diagnose me but im so good at lying that I convinced her that I never tried to lose weight and that I eat normally. Im really proud of it.
IM scared shitless of what would happen if they were to find out.
It has to be a secret, its my biggest secret and they will never see through my lies.
Even when I was 93 pounds I was able to lie enough to get myself out of it, blaming my low weight on pnumonia when in fact I was 98 pounds already before I even got sick.
I just don't understand why some people are so desperate to be diagnosed as anorexic, for me it is my biggest fear...