please don't do this. you do not want to be homeless at 15. you could get seriously hurt, kidnapped, raped......

weight is not ever permanent. you can gain up to 17 and lose it again. be patient with yourself.

if you dont want to gain just leave if you are there voluntary.

i hope you make safe choices for yourself i say all this with 0 judgement and all love. be safe 🖤

 

I dont know what else to do, i cant even decline the tube feeding because my parents gave them consent to force it on me, they'll literally hold me down and force liquid down my nose if i resist.

I need to get out of here, im not sure what they would pull if i demanded to go home but im sure they wont let me go

 

I've been a voluntary patient before, not for ed stuff but other psych stuff and when I tried to discharge myself they just sectioned me. Other times I absconded and they had the police bring me back to section me!
It depends on how much of a risk to yourself they feel you are, given that you're being tube fed I'd say they are pretty worried and would consider you high risk to yourself.
I done the whole on the run thing too, you won't be on the run for long because you'll be considered a high risk missing person the police will put out appeals online, tv, radio they'll have patrols out on foot and in vehicle looking for you, they even had the helicopter looking for me when I was missing. Once you're found it's back to the ward.
Think you're best bet is staying voluntarily as crap as it is xxxx

 

They will send the police after you if you run away.

A voluntary patient usually cannot discharge themselves.

 

As an adult in the U.S not much gets done & I've done it many times as an adult. Being a minor though it's only going to make things wayyyy worse for you. Trust me you don't want to do it and get sent back for way longer with even less freedom than you'd usually get. Also as someone who's been chronically homeless & a runaway it's extremely damaging, traumatizing, dangerous and so much more. It's not worth it in any sense.

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this, but staying & dealing and doing what you will/ or want afterwards, is going to be the best in the long run and heck even the short run. I had to learn from a young age how to play with the system right back. Acting like you want help and being compliant will get you out free to do as you wish a lot faster.

 

I’m in Australia so not sure if it’ll be the same in ur country but here, they get the hospitals security to tackle u if u try running, and if u make it off the hospital grounds they get the police.
I’m so sorry yr in this situation 🖤 bmi 17 is still incredibly low. The best u can do is be as compliant as u can be so they let u out faster.
Last time I tried running away I ended up handcuffed to a bed screaming my lungs out. It’s really not worth the added trauma
And that was as a minor

 

If youre in UK then my advice is work with them until BMI 15. Comply 100%, no funny business, show as few anorexic behaviours as possible, try to pretend to show insight and want recovery and to agree to stay there until their goal BMI. THEN at like the second you go above BMI 15 (below which is grounds for forced hospitalisation for adults according to NHS guidelines) - self discharge. They will have NO evidence to use against you - you cant be sectioned as someone fully compliant with every aspect of treatment as am adult! You will be free to go. From there, they will try to get outpatient on you but it will be more difficult with a surprise discharge. Dont respond to them, they will come to your house, be as unresponsive as possible but make sure you MAINTAIN until this happens!! an uncooperative patient who isnt losing weight will easily fall through the cracks and outpatient will cease to be involved with you, the NHS being understaffed af is a saving grace lolz.

This worked perfectly for me in my second admission, services can be gamed if you know the guidelines they work off of!

(I ruined things for myself tho by having a horrible binge phase after discharge but at least Im untroubled being below my discharge BMI now lol 😭😭)

 

I ran away once when I was 17 and had the police searching for me. I was also voluntary (was given the option of going voluntary or being sectioned so not exactly voluntary) however once inpatient, I was unable to be discharged unless they thought I was well enough (im in uk and dont know if this differs in other countries).

Overall, running away resulted in an even longer inpatient stay after as I was deemed higher risk. So wouldnt recommend.

 

if you even attempt to run away, you will be in there for a lot longer than you thought you were. you don't like it now, try 3 months. police will find you and you will be emitted to an eating disorder clinc involuntarily until they decide that you're healthy enough to leave. i'd think twice.

 

As a minor, voluntary is often not actually your decision. It is usually officially your carers/parents who agreed to your admission. Without THEM wanting your discharge, you likely cannot leave. And in most places, if a voluntary patient is considered to be in danger they can continue to be held involuntary. Running away will not work out well. It will only make things way worse.

 

I know what you're all saying but im so desperate to escape this hell, i dont know how im supposed to accept living at bmi 17, im already fat and ugly at bmi 14 and i hate myself, it will get so so much worse when im fatter...

 

I think they will find you and make you go back. Sorry...

 

I cant let that happen i need to hide and not let them take me back

i might try to run away today