What part of the cycle do you find worse? For me, it's the binging. I hate the loss of control when I binge, atleast when I purge I feel like I'm gaining control over my body by getting rid of all the disgusting food in me. Of course purging is horrible and disgusting but I feel like when I binge I look alot more disgusting than I do when I purge.
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Binging. Purging, I know I'm getting rid of that shit and I can get skinnier. Thinking about purging beforehand sounds terrible, and I kinda have to force myself to do it, but once im doing it: I just cant stop.
The binging is definitely the worse. The binge is the devil, purging is the angel that saves us.
The binging is definitely the worse. The binge is the devil, purging is the angel that saves us.
Definitely the binging, as the purging gets rid of the over full feeling.. I hate myself more if I binge than when I purge
Tough question. I love the food but hate the shame I feel when I realize that I've just downed 3000+ cals. But then I hate the purging because I know its harming me and hate that I have to be so secretive about it. I hate both so much.
The binge. I cannot stand that feeling you get where it's like you're in this zone and you can't even believe you're doing what you're doing... I hate feeling so out of control. The worst is when the feelings of guilt kick in and you finally realise like what the fuck am I doinggg.
I don't really mind purging, it's just working up to it that I don't like. I always hate the idea especially if I've binged on something I know will be difficult to get back up and then it really just in general makes me exhausted.
Either way I feel like shit.
I don't really mind purging, it's just working up to it that I don't like. I always hate the idea especially if I've binged on something I know will be difficult to get back up and then it really just in general makes me exhausted.
Either way I feel like shit.
Difficult question for me too. I like the feeling at the beginning of a binge where I'm just eating without restraint and indulging in everything I want, but it's not long before stuffing everything in becomes a painful chore, and I hate feeling over-full and distended and nauseous like I do after a binge.
I don't like purging at all, but I have to admit it's a relief to get rid of the binge food, and I feel better physically and mentally when it's done.
Don't know, really. I don't like either bingeing or purging, but I don't really feel like I have a choice about either of them, so I don't really think about it too much. I just get on with it and do what needs to be done.
I don't like purging at all, but I have to admit it's a relief to get rid of the binge food, and I feel better physically and mentally when it's done.
Don't know, really. I don't like either bingeing or purging, but I don't really feel like I have a choice about either of them, so I don't really think about it too much. I just get on with it and do what needs to be done.
I'm the same! I have to take deep breaths to get the courage to force myself to purge but once I start I don't want to stop.
It's so terrible! I wish I would get used to the idea so I didn't have to like work myself up to it every time.
Hmmm definitely a difficult question. For me, I think I hate the time between the most. I've just finished bingeing but still have not purged yet.
It's the point where you can't eat anymore and you just feel fat and full and sick and I'm worried I either won't be able to purge or I won't get it all up or if I'm home I might get caught. And I hate purging, it's horrible, it's always hardest right before I purge because I have to just make myself do it. But once I get started purging and I finally finish, the 'high' I get from it I like.
It's the point where you can't eat anymore and you just feel fat and full and sick and I'm worried I either won't be able to purge or I won't get it all up or if I'm home I might get caught. And I hate purging, it's horrible, it's always hardest right before I purge because I have to just make myself do it. But once I get started purging and I finally finish, the 'high' I get from it I like.
definitely binging. I can never get myself to purge, so I'm stuck with even more regret no matter how much I exercise
I love the empty clean feeling after purging. I don't enjoy the purging process though. I love binging to start off with as I can lose control and eat whatever and feel free. I hate when I'm binging and feel stuffed from overeating.
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Worst for me: end of the binge, and as I'm finishing the purge.
My favorite is the part right before the binge and the beginning of it...the excitement, the feeling "I can eat this, fuck you world!"...the taste of the food...
....but then when I get full and still keep eating and finally hobble to the bathroom lol. That part is no fun. Like "what the fuck did I just do?! Gotta get rid of this! I hope it all comes up" etc etc.
Same with purging--the beginning is way better than the end, when I'm tired and just want it to end. The feeling after the purge, feeling empty, seeing the number on the scale is as low as or lower than before the binge...that part is great also.
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My favorite is the part right before the binge and the beginning of it...the excitement, the feeling "I can eat this, fuck you world!"...the taste of the food...
....but then when I get full and still keep eating and finally hobble to the bathroom lol. That part is no fun. Like "what the fuck did I just do?! Gotta get rid of this! I hope it all comes up" etc etc.
Same with purging--the beginning is way better than the end, when I'm tired and just want it to end. The feeling after the purge, feeling empty, seeing the number on the scale is as low as or lower than before the binge...that part is great also.
But I hate this
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