[TheFattestFatty]

"you need more alcohol to get drunk because you're fat"

 

[Mehhh]

My mum... "I wish I was disciplined enough to have an eating disorder" or "I wish I had an eating disorder so I could lose this weight"
I mean, ffs... Does she honestly not understand how this shit works at all?

 

[_SkinnyLove_]

My nana called me 'porky' when I was 10. It's stuck with me.

 

[jessirar]

A friend and I were talking about weight loss. He knows that I've recovered from AN but didn't know me during that time. He was talking about how he has a friend who lives off coffee and "would make you look fat" (he says to me). Wonderful. He doesn't know I'm relapsing, but that hurt me so much...

 

[jessirar]

Also, when I was about ten years old, my aunt was comparing my cousin to me for weight purposes. "Yeah, she's almost as fat as Jessica." Stuck with me ever since, and I'm 23 now. I still don't like that aunt.

 

[Guest]

You don't look ill, you look like you've gained weight, that looks tight on you, I could go on all day horrible when someone says you're going to eat that ? As to say I shouldn't. Also you look healthy.

 

[Paralysed Panda]

I was out with my bf at the time (who knows about my ED). He was very good at encouraging me to try foods that I was fearful of. Anyway, we went to Auntie Annies. For those who don't know, it's like a soft pretzel place. And we got these soft cinnamon sugar pretzels. I started to tuck into mine, and he saw it as a 'win' for me, and wanted to take a picture of us eating the food so I could look back on it and see how well I was doing in my self-recovery.

Anyway, so he posted that picture of us on fb with a few other photos of things we had done that day.

My godmother (who knows nothing of my ED) commented on the picture, and was like 'Paralysed Panda, how do you manage to eat junk food like that all the time and still stay so slim. Tell us your secrets.'

h34r:

I didn't want to just leave her comment there without a reply, or delete it, so I just said something along the lines of my I only eat treats when I was with my ex (we were in a kinda-sorta-ldr) but aside from that I just eat healthily and exercise, and then I died in my bed.

It didn't trigger me, per say, but it did make me realise that maybe people were noticing my weight and what photos are posted on fb don't actually add up, you know?

One of my mum's friends told my mum to tell me that I had lost enough weight and should stop now. Nosey cow.

So yeah. None of it triggered me, but it made me want to not seek proper recovery.

 

[disappointment4]

"You aren't THAT fat" -friend

"Your legs jiggle so much" sister

"You're way too big" -sister

"Youll never fit that" Friend

 

[little_secret]

When one of my friends offered to lift me on his shoulders and his friend just asked him in a low voice "isn't she too heavy for that?"
That was the trigger that made me think: you'll never call me fat again and I'll be the girl boys will pick up like a feather...
I felt so huge that day..

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[The Loony]

When people say "you look healthy/great"
F*ck off

 

[just_a_name]

"You look fatter now than you did a month ago" Yes, someone really said that to me...

 

[thindreamer]

My freaking boyfriend always grabs the fat on my inner thigh or jiggles it -ashamed face-

 

[thindreamer]

My freaking boyfriend always grabs the fat on my inner thigh or jiggles it -ashamed face-

 

[invisible-man]

Stuff that led up to my eating disorder:
-my doctor when I was 12 telling me to make sure not to gain anymore weight
-my mom constantly talking about how she needs to lose weight and I can diet with her
-my dad and grandmother always talking about what I ate ("you're gonna eat all those carbs?!" at 11, "don't eat too much junk food" "why don't you eat this healthy thing")

And stuff that have made my ed worse in a way:
-comment on how skinny I am
-my most recent doctor telling me not to lose anymore weight
-my grandmother telling me how good I look now (and other people say it too)
-"you're so little/bony/tiny!!"
-"your hoodie is so big on me," "you're not THAT big" (so I am still big then?!?!), "I don't care what size you are," "being fat isn't a bad thing," "you're really not that much bigger than me," "there's just more of you to love."

All those last ones came from my datemate and while I know they mean well, they trigger me even without saying anything. They have an eating disorder too and they're underweight and 40 lbs lighter than me. Tbh after I met them and figured out their weight, my goal weight went from 115 to 95 lbs. I'm very messed up lol.

 

[FailedAna]

Your not even that fat anymore. Mom
Are you expecting? Stranger
You look healthy. Old teacher

 

[lemming99]

YES

 

[Guest]

My mom telling me to stop eating when I am in the middle of a binge

First I am not eating too much and now you are telling me to stop?? Make up your mind, woman.

 

[starvingforsmall]

"Oh my god, my thigh fits like three times in yours!"

We were 8 or something, but I'll never forget it.

 

[~Thanatos~]

Someone yelled across the campus quad; "Stop talking you fat fucking dike."
It was 11pm at night, it was just me and one other girl and that guy with all his friends.
My girl friend was the beautiful femme lesbian, so I knew whom that comment was for. TT-TT

 

[Oyl]

I was triggered on a few different occasions, but I'll mention only two.

When I was put on a new med, everybody in my group therapy said that I was going to gain a lot of weight and wouldn't stop gaining. Then and there I made it my mission & obessesion to prove them wrong.

The other time happened at my new work place. I was told practically everyday people bring in food like donuts, bagels and and other sweet things. He told me I would gain at least 15 - 50 pounds. Again I made it a goal to prove him wrong.

And I have proven them all wrong. But the cost of doing so has reignited my ED when I thought I was recovering. It even now makes me think if I really want to try recovery again. I'm such a failure at it.