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some of the most insane things i did as a bulimic

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it’s not like bulimia is romanticized (nor should it be) but i feel like a lot of people skip over the fact that bulimia makes you forget how insane you can act sometimes. i don’t hear enough stories about bulimia induced insanity lmao, here’s a few of mine:
-was throwing up outside my house in the bushes at 1am, worked for a bit then my dog found out which put a stop to it REAL quick
-dropped my airpod in the toilet mid purge, had to fish it out (i still use it to this day </3)
-spent over 1k on food in a single week (i live alone)
-tried to purge with my non-dominant hand and accidentally stuck a finger down my windpipe, went straight back to it after a solid five minute coughing fit
-threw up in the shower, forgot my shower drain is tiny and had to carry the now-wet undigested food to the toilet
-took 42 laxatives in one go (partially because my tolerance was high, partially out of desperation)
-overdosed on lax twice nearly back to back, soon after i thought i had overdosed again and my parents found out so they called ab ambulance, turns out that time it was period cramps lmao
-ate multiple bowls of noodles and tried to purge, almost asphyxiated cuz they got stuck in my throat (it did not stop me from getting the rest out)

there’s a ton more but that’s what i’ve got for now lol
 
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I haven't gotten into lax, and I don't make enough to spend 1k on binge food, but the rest of these I've definitely done (headphones more times than id like to admit). I'll add:
-taking money out of my savings to b/p
-taking money I had planned to use for my electric bill to b/p
-purging in public bathroom with only one other person it
-debating eating my roommates cookies out of the trash
-b/p on food that had been sitting out for probably around 40 hours
 
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i can relate so much. every stupid or insane decision i make is a result of being bulimic. stealing food, exercizing for the entire night, walking through the woods at 2am to get to a store because i got a random binge urge, eaten from the trash...
 
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Spent my rent money on binge food, purged the day after taking laxatives (you can imagine out that turned out :////), got into the habit of shoplifting swiss rolls from my local shop, and have spent an absolutely ungodly amount of money on ubereats over the years
 
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Way too much ._.
  • Spent hundreds and probably thousands of money on food to binge on.
  • Shoplifted a lot of the binge food.
  • Throwing up in a forest because I couldn’t get in the house lmao.
  • Binging at my room, but not being able to purge because of a shared toilet. So after the binge going to my parents house to use their bathroom ._.
  • Learning to put a ng tube in, only so I could constantly put it back in. In a period of “forced” tubefeeding and still wanting to bp.
  • Cancelling all kind of appointments only to bp.
  • Taking food out of my own thrash bin, not caring if it was moldy or whatever. Only to binge. I ate mold several times tho. Wth
 
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-i ltterally have dropped my phone, airpods and fav ring in vomit (fished them all out ofc)
-my dog ate my throw up that i purged while walking him the day after
-i purged in the sink than my dad did dishes and turned on the disposal but there was a fork stuck in the sink so he litterally put his hand in my vomit while talking on the phone to my grandma (i watched in disbeleif)
-thrrew up in a public shower in my dorm everynight for a while and stomped down my vomit in the drai that was clogged with other girls hair

i wouldnt wish bulimia on ANYONE
 
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  • tried to purge in the five guys bathroom and i had to pose for a family portrait right after
  • i kissed someone a couple hours after purging but i hadn't brushed my teeth inbetween
  • i got caught while purging cookies in a gas station bathroom
  • purged at my friend's house except her toilet is lowkey dysfunctional so i went back to check and not everything had flushed
  • eating my own puke bc i didn't know what part of my binge was coming up (god i really hate this one)
 
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Oh geez I have a lot of bad experiences w/ b/p (at the time I purged w lax)
The worst probably being commuting to college campus, binging (driving around everywhere and just binging while driving to the next spot), ended up skipping class to binge, took a bunch of dulcolax, didn’t kick in the next morning until I was halfway to campus and ended up pulling over on the side of an expressway during rush hour bc I was not gonna make it…. Literally was in the car for over an hour, kneeling in my own💩

mid binge having to go to practice (college athlete) and ended up leaving halfway through the workout to continue binging 🤡

Binging on frosting out of the trash from cookies my roomate made
 
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decadence disordered said:
I haven't gotten into lax, and I don't make enough to spend 1k on binge food, but the rest of these I've definitely done (headphones more times than id like to admit). I'll add:
-taking money out of my savings to b/p
-taking money I had planned to use for my electric bill to b/p
-purging in public bathroom with only one other person it
-debating eating my roommates cookies out of the trash
-b/p on food that had been sitting out for probably around 40 hours
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dw i don’t make enough money to spend 1k on binge food either, i make VERY bad financial decisions :’)
the eating food out of the trash is UNBELIEVABLY real, + purging in public. restaurants and airplane bathrooms hate to see me coming
 
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Fearlesslyfoxes said:
Way too much ._.
  • Spent hundreds and probably thousands of money on food to binge on.
  • Shoplifted a lot of the binge food.
  • Throwing up in a forest because I couldn’t get in the house lmao.
  • Binging at my room, but not being able to purge because of a shared toilet. So after the binge going to my parents house to use their bathroom ._.
  • Learning to put a ng tube in, only so I could constantly put it back in. In a period of “forced” tubefeeding and still wanting to bp.
  • Cancelling all kind of appointments only to bp.
  • Taking food out of my own thrash bin, not caring if it was moldy or whatever. Only to binge. I ate mold several times tho. Wth
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godddddd hate to admit it but i’ve definitely eaten moldy bread before lol. cancelling appointments hits so hard too, my b/p time takes unfortunate priority
 
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