I literally can’t control myself when it comes to Mexican pastries despite knowing the shit ton of calories in them 😭 but I feel you. Once you start counting calories it’s kinda impossible to stop 💀

 

I would eat like 6 bowls of cereal in a row when I got home from school. BIG bowls.

 

omg cereals were my I can eat them endlessly food as well!!

 

I used to devour one or two whole packages of chocolate chip cookies everyday. Now I can't even eat 1 single cookie🫠 same with cereal/rice/bread. Also butter!

 

Milkshakes and thickshakes. I had no idea how calorie laden they were. I shudder thinking about how many I used to drink.

 

Yep this.


Tho it's tricky since my ED began when I was 6 BUT I didn't know about 'calories' then and one of my 'safe' foods was flavoured milk.

The full fat (which isn't the bad part, I was a kid) but full SUGAR, dairy milk.


Tho......New Zealand Dairy is perfection. It's why NZ whey is the the number 1 world wide. It never gave me gut issues unlike shit Australia dairy.

 

I used to never just have one sandwich but TWO sandwiches, sometimes more 😭 and of all kinds, pb&j, ham (canned ham and mayo + cheese) etc. Now i typically only do one slice of bread -- and currently i'm avoiding processed foods for a few days so no bread atm 💀 and mayonnaise I never touch any more unless someone else is making a sandwich for me, which happens a few times a year.
That was the big thing i could think of. Also canned soups I would have two of at once (2.5 servings per can so legit 5 servings) and the same with ramen packages and TV dinners, back to back 😭
I remember when I was 14, my doctor asked me about it, so i said what i ate, and she's like "you should only have one canned food/tv dinner a day". Back then I thought that was crazy. But now a decade later I think only one ultraprocessed food a day is permissible for myself -- and 0 cal energy drinks count towards that.
Sorry if it's a ramble. Omg and with the cereal I used to POUR sugar from a 5 lb bag on top of already sugared frosted flakes bro I was cooked 😭
I can't blame myself as a kid, no one taught me about good eating habits and I only started tracking calories when I was 15. But currently isn't great either.

 

I used to never just have one sandwich but TWO sandwiches, sometimes more 😭 and of all kinds, pb&j, ham (canned ham and mayo + cheese) etc. Now i typically only do one slice of bread -- and currently i'm avoiding processed foods for a few days so no bread atm 💀 and mayonnaise I never touch any more unless someone else is making a sandwich for me, which happens a few times a year.
That was the big thing i could think of. Also canned soups I would have two of at once (2.5 servings per can so legit 5 servings) and the same with ramen packages and TV dinners, back to back 😭
I remember when I was 14, my doctor asked me about it, so i said what i ate, and she's like "you should only have one canned food/tv dinner a day". Back then I thought that was crazy. But now a decade later I think only one ultraprocessed food a day is permissible for myself -- and 0 cal energy drinks count towards that.
Sorry if it's a ramble. Omg and with the cereal I used to POUR sugar from a 5 lb bag on top of already sugared frosted flakes bro I was cooked 😭
I can't blame myself as a kid, no one taught me about good eating habits and I only started tracking calories when I was 15. But currently isn't great either.

omg YES sandwiches I cringe at the amount of spread I used to use

 

Peanut butter 😕

 

When we were taken out to the pub for a meal as a kid, we used to get: tomato soup with warm rolls and real butter; steak and kidney pie with chips and peas; and then either sticky toffee pudding and custard, or mini donuts and chocolate dipping sauce. And don't forget the obligatory crispy mint chocolate disc when the adults had coffee lol.

And now we might allow ourselves some peas, once in a blue moon...

Also used to eat those deep-fried, honey-covered banana chips by the literal bagful.

We were a proper good little eater as a kid. Really enjoyed food, and had a happy relationship with the body up until the age of around 11-12. Know that for a lot of folks on this site, diet culture hit them earlier, so I'm glad that I got the years that I did. (And my heart goes out to anyone that was encouraged to diet at like, the age of 8 or something ridiculous...)

Know that's not the only cause/trigger/pre-cursor for an ED, but just wanted to say.

 

So many cookies, and ice cream that I often ate when bored/sensory seeking. I don’t even know how I was at a normal weight, I’d eat so much sugar after school

 

had such a binge eating disorder from like 5th-11th grade cause i got bullied. i'd eat entire pizzas....TOPPED WITH another whole meal (like fries, or mozzarella sticks...). so many slices of toast thickly coated in nutella. on the weekend, i'd even have like, muffins for breakfast. i could eat entire (large) bags of chips in one sitting. sometimes at night, i'd binge on toast dipped in mayonnaise.....like, i'd just grab 5 slices at a time and take them to my room.

it's a wonder i never went over 100kg eating like this. it makes me really sad thinking what a sad little kid i was back then. i knew it was bad for me, made me gain weight, but i just kinda didn't care enough to stop...lol

now i'm still working off all the damage i did to my body :') sometimes i think i'm horribly overeating when i have like...a normal breakfast, small snack and dinner. thinking about what i used to eat puts it into perspective haha

 

chocolate covered almonds. I could eat a bag in one sitting, now I can barely stomach the idea of having just 2
And peanut butter for sure!

 

Individual cake slices, like those prepackaged ones. 400+ kcal in one slice, what the fuck is that man. Also chips, why are those so ridiculously high cal, I just want to have my bbq chips in peace 😭😭

 

this is so real - I used to eat a smoothie AND banana bread for breakfast that shit would have been loaded, and untracked chips would go wild

 

had ARFID as long as I can remember, but my childhood safe foods were like buttered toast, french fries, quesadillas, chocolate chip cookies, pancakes... i wouldve gagged/puked if i tried to eat most lowcal foods lmao (other than seaweed, huge seaweed fan). i remember the first time I fasted at like.. 8-10 ? (religion) and felt physically smaller, better, more in control but i couldnt fathom what to do (other than fast) for another year or two when I saw an article in one of my moms magazines about '150 calorie snacks.' and then it all clicked

 

This isn’t something I ate but I was researching a restaurant’s menu yesterday in preparation to go there next week so I knew what I should order, and I checked the kids menu (I was annoyed that kids could get 4oz steak and grilled chicken breast and one scoop of vanilla ice cream and all the adult stuff was fried crap and hundreds of cals) ANYWAYS, I checked the kids menu dessert and they had a mega milkshake ice cream dessert on there for 500+ calories!!! On a kids menu!!! That’s like insane to me! It had like 5 scoops of chocolate ice cream, chocolate syrup, 2 types of chocolate bar on it, some other stuff. And I just thought yeah fair enough on an adult menu but that to be on a kids menu was a bit… much??

 

But me, when I was younger, I used to toast 2 thick slices of white bread and smother them in Nutella & then I’d eat it like a sandwich with all the chocolate running out of it everywhere. Or I’d straight up just eat Nutella out the jar in secret. Before I knew what BED was

 

QUICHE

 

as a young child id eat basically two of everything. i was fairly active in the summers but i was most definitely still sorta chubby but not too bad, but for example, for breakfast id often eat 2 bowls of cereal, or two english muffins (i thought one serving size was 2 bc they were so small), two granola bars at once (i loved the clif bars and id often eat 2 at once.....theyre 260 a piece...so 520 cal for just a snack) or id eat two packages of oatmeal, honestly idek how i was able to eat that much bc one package now and im stuffed, basically anything you could imagine, id eat double the serving and thought it was normal. id always go back up for seconds too. now i eat off the smallest plate possible and eat half of one serving of everything lol

 

When I didn't know about calories truly (as a child)
Bowls of oatmeal, full fat milk and table spoons of sugar.
Nutella + Peanut butter sandwiches on white toast.
Ice cream Milkshakes

When I was older, didnt care or 'tried' to diet:
Salads drowning in ranch dressing
Liters of juice
Tomato + Cheese croissaints
Cheetoz + Baby carrots mixed
A shit ton of creamer in my coffee
Vegetable chips
Sweetened offee drinks / Frappuccinos

Didnt care era:
Stuffed crust pizza
Burgers + fries take out
Pastries. A lot of them.

 

When I didn't know about calories truly (as a child)
Bowls of oatmeal, full fat milk and table spoons of sugar.
Nutella + Peanut butter sandwiches on white toast.
Ice cream Milkshakes

When I was older, didnt care or 'tried' to diet:
Salads drowning in ranch dressing
Liters of juice
Tomato + Cheese croissaints
Cheetoz + Baby carrots mixed
A shit ton of creamer in my coffee
Vegetable chips
Sweetened offee drinks / Frappuccinos

Didnt care era:
Stuffed crust pizza
Burgers + fries take out
Pastries. A lot of them.

Oh Nutella!!! So good! Would just spoon it into my mouth! And pb too! I forgot about frozen drinks too! I loved slushies and frappes too! Man those were good on a hot day!

 

Real deal soda with all that sugar!!! Mini cakes from grocery store (they be like 1,000 plus calories!) pint of ice cream take out food of almost any kind and real deal soft drinks and juice too. Breadsticks and garlic breads; could eat like 20 pieces I swear! Boy ignorance is such bliss but fat is such a mean b*%#h!

 

Pasta. I love pasta. I would almost always ask for seconds and now I struggle with eating even a small bowl of it.

 

IMO, Pasta isn't even worth the calories. I don't remember the last time I ate it even b4 ana

 

I used to add PEANUT BUTTER ON MY ICE CREAM

 

Whole pints Ben and Jerry’s, Mac and cheese, pasta in general 🥲🥲

 

When I'd go visit my grandma, she would make either pancakes or crepes (all from scratch, never a premade mix), and set the dining room table with every conceivable topping you could imagine until there was barely room for your own spot at the table. Real Canadian maple syrup, raw honey, butter, cream, almond butter, peanut butter, jams, berries, etc. And then she would just keep making pancakes or crepes until all of us stopped talking because we could barely move anymore.

I remember laying on her couch in a food coma, my stomach aching, but without a single worry or regret at all, pure bliss, no concept of calories or weight. Then an hour later, I'd hop up, run outside into the forest and play for hours until she made lunch. I was a string bean. My grandma was an amazing woman

 

My grandma was also the first person to introduce me to some amazing dishes like cioppino, colcannon, and homemade blackberry pie. She made everything from scratch so it was always excellent quality. She had a wild blackberry grove behind her house and in summer we'd pick gallons of the plumpest, sweetest berries you could ever imagine. She was Swiss-German and my grandpa was Czech but she loved food and would venture into other cuisines from around the world because she loved world travel.

Looking back, it was something out of a fairytale. She's still alive but I haven't seen her in over a year as she was put into a home many hours from me 😞 She's 103 years old and still can talk on the phone like she's 80

 

I ate globs of peanut butter, Oreos, ice cream, boxes of crackers, bags of chips, and things like poptarts...

I had a terrible binge day yesterday and ate a jar of peanut butter, .5 lb of black licorice, 3/4 block of cheese, and 1/4 deli meat... I feel like shit today... It's fucking terrible... This post is inspiring me to throw this shit away and clean my kitchen/ pantry of high-cal food...

 

On the rare occasion my mom didn't prepare our food (she was a very loving, constantly cooking mom), usually on a hike or something, my dad would lovingly make us kids peanut butter and honey sandwiches on sprouted cinnamon raisin bread. He would put so much care and love into mixing the peanut butter and honey until it was like frosting and then spread it just right on the bread and the honey would soak into the bread ohh ma lawd it was sooooo good. And this was peanut butter my mom had ground herself so it was so fresh and had no palm oil or additives. Gahh I was so spoiled 😭