I thankfully do not live with roommates so I won't be in a situation like this, but I was wondering if anyone has ever been caught in a VERY obvious b/p? Like the food or wrappers laying around everywhere while you're vomiting? Or someting similar. I always wondered what do you even say in this situation or how other people react if they don't know.
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bloodbucket
anyone ever caught in a full on b/p?
Yeah... a long time ago though.
I was 16, pretty new to b/p after my first or maybe second round of forced treatment. My parents went to Mass one Saturday night, so I pounced on the opportunity and immediately started binging basically the second I saw their car drive away lmao.
Only... my father forgot his wallet and had to come back. I'm still haunted by his face as he walked into the room where there was already a mound of wrappers. I'm pretty sure I had ice cream dripping down my chin because I just did not have enough fucks to clean it up.
That moment felt like an eternity, him staring bewildered, me staring guiltily. He quickly grabbed his wallet and left without saying a word. As it goes in my family, we never brought it up ever again and acted like it never even happened.
For context, they knew I wasn't recovered in any way other than my weight. It was like a game we played: you're fine unless your weight gets low, in which case we ship you off and pretend you're fine again when you come back fat. Repeat ad nauseum.
I'm so glad I got away from them.
I was 16, pretty new to b/p after my first or maybe second round of forced treatment. My parents went to Mass one Saturday night, so I pounced on the opportunity and immediately started binging basically the second I saw their car drive away lmao.
Only... my father forgot his wallet and had to come back. I'm still haunted by his face as he walked into the room where there was already a mound of wrappers. I'm pretty sure I had ice cream dripping down my chin because I just did not have enough fucks to clean it up.
That moment felt like an eternity, him staring bewildered, me staring guiltily. He quickly grabbed his wallet and left without saying a word. As it goes in my family, we never brought it up ever again and acted like it never even happened.
For context, they knew I wasn't recovered in any way other than my weight. It was like a game we played: you're fine unless your weight gets low, in which case we ship you off and pretend you're fine again when you come back fat. Repeat ad nauseum.
I'm so glad I got away from them.
Unfortunately I’ve been caught several times. A couple of the worst:
1) I was at my grandparents and it was about 1am and I decided to binge. I usually clean up and hide all evidence once I’m done so the surface was covered with wrappers and plates etc. I put some toast in the toaster and something went wrong and it caught fire. The smoke alarm went off, everyone came running downstairs and there I was in the middle of a smoke filled kitchen surrounded by binge mess and puke still in the downstairs toilet! It was awful.
2) my parents had left for an event and I decided to order a takeaway which I don’t do usually as it’s so expensive and my parents are normally in but I didn’t have much else to binge on. However my mum felt ill on the way so unknowingly to me they had turned round to come home. They arrived at home just as the delivery man arrived and I had also already started binging and was in the middle of eating a pint of icecream and shit loads of noodles. They looked so ashamed. Plus I didn’t get to eat my takeaway.
1) I was at my grandparents and it was about 1am and I decided to binge. I usually clean up and hide all evidence once I’m done so the surface was covered with wrappers and plates etc. I put some toast in the toaster and something went wrong and it caught fire. The smoke alarm went off, everyone came running downstairs and there I was in the middle of a smoke filled kitchen surrounded by binge mess and puke still in the downstairs toilet! It was awful.
2) my parents had left for an event and I decided to order a takeaway which I don’t do usually as it’s so expensive and my parents are normally in but I didn’t have much else to binge on. However my mum felt ill on the way so unknowingly to me they had turned round to come home. They arrived at home just as the delivery man arrived and I had also already started binging and was in the middle of eating a pint of icecream and shit loads of noodles. They looked so ashamed. Plus I didn’t get to eat my takeaway.
I happened to walk out of a pizza place (carrying an additional two bags of binge food from the minimart, obvs) the other day at the exact same moment my ex was passing by on his way to work. I just straight up turned around and ran away.
yes been caught binge eating multiple times in the past lol mainly because i was too depressed/food obsessed/exhausted to go out of my way to hide it. with my family, they knew about me having an ED already since i had developed AN while living at home in my teens so when they saw me binging, they were actually glad to see me eating a bunch of food bc i "needed to gain weight." at the time, i think they genuinely believed i was recovering when they walked in on me eating entire loaves of bread, whole jars of peanut butter, etc. however, they had no idea i had started p*rging and things would've been a lot different if they had. like a lot of non-disordered people, my family would not recognize binging for what it is even if they see me literally eating 10,000 cals right in front of them, but they absolutely would lose their minds if they walked in on me p*rging even once. thankfully that has never happened and i hope it never will
i've also b/p in public (at the park, at the mall, random public bathrooms, pretty much every building at uni, high school) hundreds of times so ig random strangers saw/heard what i was doing but unfortunately cannot bring myself to care in those situations 💀
also while i was in uni i used to go to this one specific bathroom to p*rge, especially in the middle of the night lol, it was in the basement of one of the residence buildings and i knew that people rarely went there. anyway this one time i was doing my thing and, of all people, one of my good friends at the time who lived in that building just so happens to walk into the bathroom and sees my feet facing the wrong way at the toilet. she immediately knew what i was doing, as she has struggled with an eating disorder herself. an awkward conversation followed and we never talked about it again :/
i've also b/p in public (at the park, at the mall, random public bathrooms, pretty much every building at uni, high school) hundreds of times so ig random strangers saw/heard what i was doing but unfortunately cannot bring myself to care in those situations 💀
also while i was in uni i used to go to this one specific bathroom to p*rge, especially in the middle of the night lol, it was in the basement of one of the residence buildings and i knew that people rarely went there. anyway this one time i was doing my thing and, of all people, one of my good friends at the time who lived in that building just so happens to walk into the bathroom and sees my feet facing the wrong way at the toilet. she immediately knew what i was doing, as she has struggled with an eating disorder herself. an awkward conversation followed and we never talked about it again :/
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