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So I left my boyfriend's place this morning and after I got to campus (the college is right across from his apartment) I went to the bathroom to purge the gatorade and crackers he got me. I thought I was in the bathroom alone... but after I purged I heard the toilet flush, and I was like thinking "Oh fuck, I can't leave now or else they'll see my face and know me. Or they'll be able to tell I have an eating disorder." SO I just stood there and fucked around on my phone waiting for them to leave. And they just fucking stood there? Like... cunt, wash your hands and gtfo. I gotta get to class! And then here's the best part, she goes "Are you okay? Do you like... need anything?" And I say, "Nah, I'm fine. I'm just really, REALLY hungover." WHAT. THE. FUCK. Why did I say that? Out of all the good excuses, I picked that one. And she was just like, "Oh okay. I just wanted to make sure you were okay and didn't need anything. I have a friend that throws up a lot." o_O Wut? You have a friend that throws up a lot? What are you trying to say? JUST LEAVE.

I feel like she must've known. I'm hands-free, but I gulped some water in-between to make sure I got everything up. IT WAS SO AWKWARD. After she left I waited to make sure she wouldn't chill in the hallway and see me. The worst part is, I'm 95% sure it was an employee, not a student. Lol, last thing I need is a professor up my ass. I'm a fucking adult and I don't need someone trying to tell me to eat or get treatment.

Has anything like this ever happened to you? Or just awkward purging stories you wanna share? I need to know I'm not alone. :unsure:
 

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This is why purging in public gives me anxiety. Last time I did l, it was after eating at a casino buffet then I went straight into the bathroom to purge. I've always been a loud purger and some old lady started knocking on the stall door asking "are you okay in there honey?" After that I couldn't even finish purging knowing she was listening. so I came out of the stall and told her i was fine and just had morning sickness cause I was preggers lmao. 馃槶馃槀
 

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Aw~ I'm sorry that happened.

I don't purge in public anymore cause of an incident (that I'm not really willing to share - sorry). But it's hella awkward and people really do intrude. Like I get it, maybe you're trying to help and that's really sweet of you. I'd prob do the same honestly if I heard someone just throwing up in the washroom. I wouldn't stay if they told me they're ok, but I have to make sure they're not dying lol
 
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I was at souplantation and decided I had eaten too much and decided to get that nastiness out of me. I was depressed so I only wore jeans, a bra, and a jacket. So I go in the stall and take my jacket off because I don't want puke on the sleeve. So I'm purging in my bra and jeans. After I'm done, my hands are too nasty to put my jacket on and make a mad dash to the sink in the empty bathroom. As soon as I got out, a lady comes in. To see me, vomit on my face and hands, in a freaking bra. I froze. She froze. I retreated to my stall until she got in hers and quickly washed up and left!

Another time I decided to purge in the big stall of a crowded bathroom of a restaurant (ED, ate too much, don't give af.) somebody thought my stall was empty and then I hear someone say "someone's getting sick in there" fuck. So I come out and see all these faces. Pull out some tums and swish and spit to neutralize the acid. Some lady goes "you always clean your teeth after going to the bathroom?" Fuck she knew. I mumbled something and left quickly. I'm 19 but look an average of 14 so I'm glad she didn't try to track down my mom and tell her.
 
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Aw~ I'm sorry that happened.

I don't purge in public anymore cause of an incident (that I'm not really willing to share - sorry). But it's hella awkward and people really do intrude. Like I get it, maybe you're trying to help and that's really sweet of you. I'd prob do the same honestly if I heard someone just throwing up in the washroom. I wouldn't stay if they told me they're ok, but I have to make sure they're not dying lol
Dude, no need to share. Don't apologize for honoring your boundaries. Some shit goes better left unsaid. Also, kudos to you for knowing what you are/aren't comfortable sharing and listening to yourself. ^~^

But as to the saying something, I honestly have no clue what I'd do. Part of me would want to make sure they're okay, but the other part would be like "shit if they have an eating disorder you're gonna trigger them so hardcore." Like with me. I could barely leave the bathroom, I was terrified I'd walk into the hall and get harassed about my weight and seeking treatment. Because I feel huge, but I'm sure logically at my weight she could probably guess by looking at me, especially hearing me purge. So I'm not sure. My issue is not with purging in public restrooms. Frankly I don't give a fuck who hears me, but I honestly don't want someone to try and intervene or say "oh you need help." Like... no... I'm perfectly fine so have a nice fucking day. Ur a stranger. Bye, Felicia.
 
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I was at souplantation and decided I had eaten too much and decided to get that nastiness out of me. I was depressed so I only wore jeans, a bra, and a jacket. So I go in the stall and take my jacket off because I don't want puke on the sleeve. So I'm purging in my bra and jeans. After I'm done, my hands are too nasty to put my jacket on and make a mad dash to the sink in the empty bathroom. As soon as I got out, a lady comes in. To see me, vomit on my face and hands, in a freaking bra. I froze. She froze. I retreated to my stall until she got in hers and quickly washed up and left!

Another time I decided to purge in the big stall of a crowded bathroom of a restaurant (ED, ate too much, don't give af.) somebody thought my stall was empty and then I hear someone say "someone's getting sick in there" fuck. So I come out and see all these faces. Pull out some tums and swish and spit to neutralize the acid. Some lady goes "you always clean your teeth after going to the bathroom?" Fuck she knew. I mumbled something and left quickly. I'm 19 but look an average of 14 so I'm glad she didn't try to track down my mom and tell her.
Dude, same. I'm 19, but at 85lbs with a fucking baby face I look like I could be 12 some day DX
 
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I got desperate for a binge during my break at work. I work near the food court, so I got some food and a Jugo Juice and slipped into the food court bathroom. I was eating a few bites at a time and then immediately purging them (I'm hands free) so it would be faster and I could get back to work.

Apparently I didn't close the door properly because a lady opened my stall door, stood there for a few seconds, went "Uhhhh... I'm sorry." And then walked away leaving the stall door slightly ajar.

There was vomit pouring out of my mouth when I did it and I even turned around and looked at her while a bunch of Jugo Juice was coming out of my mouth.

I had a bunch of food and stuff in there with me, there was no way she could've suspected anything other than good ol' bulimia.

So... You're not alone. Hugs to you! I've gotten over my experience, personally, if that makes you feel any better.
 
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I had bangs at 17 and they thought I was 11....

Without makeup I can pass for 12. With makeup on, 13-16.
Are you short too? I feel like being shorter makes people think I'm even younger than I am.

And I had a facial piercing for a while. That definitely made me look older, but I had to let it close up. It was my septum and when I purge, sometimes vomit comes up my nose and it started to irritate my nasal passages and the piercing, so I just took out my clicker and let it close up. :'(
 

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Oh a month or two ago I was out to eat with my husband. I wanted to purge there before we left since we had to go shopping and my husband just told me to be quick. I go in the bathroom and an employee was in a stall (only like 3 or 4 stalls in the bathroom) and I made noise so they would know I was in there. I stood in my stall for like at least five minutes. They just sat there. They weren't doing anything. Eventually I couldn't wait any longer so I just started puking. They flushed and got the heck out of there so quick lmao.
 

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When I purge in public bathrooms (which I do more than I should.. But yeah) I just say (like in saying it to myself) "don't let me be pregnant..." Haha. Works like a charm.
 
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In my old neighborhood there was a dirt road and a bunch of undeveloped space with tall weeds overgrown and I would walk on the dirt road till I found a spot I could purge. This road was also a popular place to walk dogs and while purging out of the corner of my eyes is noticed some people walking their dog so I ran through all the over grown weeds and hid behind them while they walked by. They definitely noticed the fresh puke but I don't know if they noticed me.
 
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Are you short too? I feel like being shorter makes people think I'm even younger than I am.

And I had a facial piercing for a while. That definitely made me look older, but I had to let it close up. It was my septum and when I purge, sometimes vomit comes up my nose and it started to irritate my nasal passages and the piercing, so I just took out my clicker and let it close up. :'(
I'm short and small boned so I guess that helps. I have a little nose stud, but it isn't that noticeable.
 

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I was at souplantation and decided I had eaten too much and decided to get that nastiness out of me. I was depressed so I only wore jeans, a bra, and a jacket. So I go in the stall and take my jacket off because I don't want puke on the sleeve. So I'm purging in my bra and jeans. After I'm done, my hands are too nasty to put my jacket on and make a mad dash to the sink in the empty bathroom. As soon as I got out, a lady comes in. To see me, vomit on my face and hands, in a freaking bra. I froze. She froze. I retreated to my stall until she got in hers and quickly washed up and left!

Another time I decided to purge in the big stall of a crowded bathroom of a restaurant (ED, ate too much, don't give af.) somebody thought my stall was empty and then I hear someone say "someone's getting sick in there" fuck. So I come out and see all these faces. Pull out some tums and swish and spit to neutralize the acid. Some lady goes "you always clean your teeth after going to the bathroom?" Fuck she knew. I mumbled something and left quickly. I'm 19 but look an average of 14 so I'm glad she didn't try to track down my mom and tell her.
I can't believe, in that last incident, how cold those people were!

People usually just ignore me. I feel it's because I carry myself like my shit don't stink......but only when I'm puking in public :(
 

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I just don't give a crap about people hearing me puke anymore, specifically in public washrooms.

I live in a big city where I will most likely never see these people again so I just do my business as quickly as possible and then leave.
 

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Lol I slyly check all of the stalls before and if someone comes in I just wait... luckily I've never been caught. I do it all the time, even though I never eat in public bc I have terrible anxiet. Usually it's at the movie theater or restaurants that have booths where no one can see you if that makes sense. :') A lot of the times I'm forced to go out to eat and I excuse myself to go to the bathroom and I'm always lucky enough to have it to myself.
 

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*Hugs*

I don't give two shits about purging in public, never have tbh. But if someone was to make a comment like that. .. grr. And I do feel awfully uncomfortable when it's me and then.. SHIT SOMEONE IN HERE. The exact same things go through my head. Don't worry, people can't just detect you have an eating disorder, unless they have one themselves or know someone that does. Also it's NONE of their business. That was really rude, there was no need for that. Seems that person is automatically ASSUMING everyone that throws up is doing it intentionally.. silly. Hope you're ok
 
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