[hantasm]

existence

 

[parrotthepolly]

I slept for like 11 hours? So at least I fasted for the entire day and I'm still too exhausted to think, nevermind prepare food.

 

[SilverRae]

Just life in general I think

 

[wishmegone]

My partner brought cake and will be expecting us to have some in a couple of hours despite knowing I’ve relapsed and I’m heavily restricting and it’ll be really difficult for me. I know it’s not their fault I’m abnormal but it seems like they don’t care that it’s distressing for me. But that’s probably just the panic talking.

 

[sillykiwi]

Recently got to one of my gws so now my brain has shifted to desperately wanting to reach the ugw.

 

[Toxtricity]

Apparently my height in the hospital was written as 5'8.5 not 5'6 so the nutritionist essentially called me fat when she saw me

 

[Yardi]

My old skinny clothes in my spare wardrobe waiting for me

 

[radiowave]

fasting for two days and still plateauing

 

[EmoBallerina]

Every time I eat anything I get the mental capacity to mourn my dog. So I’m starving to avoid thinking 😭.

 

[darkbarbie]

An event planned for the beginning of August
It makes me not want to eat at all. Just fast until then. I know it is not possible to do it. But I will make sure to stick to my deficit even if it is small.

 

[ani_x]

Religious family keep talking about getting me married 24 isn't old stop mentioning marriage CVs I will keep losing weight so that I don't get my period back and don't have to be a baby-making 5-times-a-day praying housewife to a homophobic man

 

[Adelicategem]

Everyone saying how well I’m doing when I know I’m not, they have no idea what I’m doing behind the scenes but still is making me feel invalid just makes me want to get worse so they can see I’m not alright (although I’m conflicted as if they think I’m fine I can keep going without any intervention)

 

[sscatteredd]

food in my stomach

also yesterday my mum asked if me or my husband had "changed shape at all" on keto (clearly not noticing the 30lbs I've lost in less than 3 months)

 

[Snorkfraeulein]

Guy I'm seeing is getting flaky. Might come over today, might not. My superstitious ass skipped dinner (after already skipping lunch), cleaned the house, ran a 10k, had a ful-on internal breakdown over whether to have some porridge/yogurt/slice of cheese, brushed my teeth, then drank a cup of hot water just to fill me up, now I'm cycling, praying for him to message he's coming over. I am so hungry but if I eat he won't come (love ED logic)
Part of me does not actually want him to come over because it means I cannot finish my 3h exercise routine. The bigger part wants him to to make me feel valid and wanted.

 

[analovelyangel]

My self at my old weight, my friends who are models, same height as me but thinner..they live on liquids and take dex for appetite suppression

 

[DEsinFECTIE]

I have a corporate job, and my colleagues keep telling me that I am like a black box and that I need to open up and loosen up. I feel seriously triggered by this.

 

[k.slowlydropping]

Religious family keep talking about getting me married 24 isn't old stop mentioning marriage CVs I will keep losing weight so that I don't get my period back and don't have to be a baby-making 5-times-a-day praying housewife to a homophobic man

I’m sorry ur experiencing this. Is there any way u can get out?

 

[Crustfund]

It wasn't just in my head. I look so god damn fat in EVERY.SINGLE.PICTURE that's taken of me( even though I'm healthy bmi for most of my life)
God forgive me but i want to be the skinnier sister for once in my life

 

[mollymoonwater]

My mom & boyfriend begging me eat & getting on my case about it. The doctor bringing up my weight loss today like it’s a bad thing to want to be thinner.

 

[skinnyselene]

a friend of mine told me she has an ED