Eating Disorders are a Way to Self Harm & a means of Self Destruction, but:-
Life is Better with you in it.

I tried increasing Antidepressant dose & spent 6 weeks with suicidal thoughts & not wanting to be here. The increase failed & 4 of the 6 weeks was waiting for it to leave my system. It's not easy but there are things in life worth living for. Your partner and 3 kids would be a good place for you to start, if you asked them they probably don't think their better off without you.

Your torn muscle needs rest to recover. Compulsive exercise is hard to control, but try running less & within your calorie & safe food limits try to get better nutrition to help your muscle heal. High strength vit C & D will help your body to heal. I use a pure Vit C powder, it's Ascorbic Acid so its sour like vinegar or lemon juice, I use it to fight lung & nasal infections from purging & restricting, I put 1tsp on my tongue & drink water to wash it down, it's easier that diluting it & drinking a sour drink.

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In answer to your title's question:-

I have 2 Inguinal hernias - Groin Hernia on each side From HF Purging too hard.
The 1 on the RHS I can't remember how I did it but it was quite a few years ago, I aught to get it seen to by a doctor but haven't. Most of the time it's not a problem, but sometimes it gets a bubble of gas in it & swells pushing out from my groin, it is hard & hurts, I can push it back inside the muscle wall with my finger, I sometimes need to raise my knee up to do this. The swelling & pain disappear, it sometimes does this a few times, but if I don't push it in it remains hard & painful, it is about half the size of a golfball. I think I did it from purging too hard.
The LHS about 5-6 years ago I was HF purging very hard by flexing stomach muscles to try to empty my stomach & I felt it happen. This 1 is about the same size as the RHS & my groin bulges there but I no longer get any pain.

BN & AN have cause overtime:-
2022 Seizure - Hyponatremia (v Low Sodium) - I try to balance my Electrolytes Now

Low Sodium - Nausea, Headaches, Loss of Appetite, Unquenchable Thirst-Also High Sodium
Low Potassium - Muscle Cramps esp Legs

Dehydration
Dry Hair - From Dehydration
Bradicardia
Orthostatic Hypotension - Postural Drop - Low BP When stan up - Dizzy
Feeling Cold
Reynards Syndrome - When it's cold
Inguinal hernia - From HF Purging too hard
Increase in Infections
Swollen Throat Glands - Sore Throat
Bloating, Water weight

Bradicardia
If I sit still for a while my heart rate decreases to low 40s, 42-45 BMP, & I have bought a Kardia Mobile ECG device to do my own 6 lead ECGs to monitor my heart rate.

Seizure
Was partly due to dropping my alcohol level too fast & partly 2 weeks of B-P + restricting my salt intake. - 2 1/2 Days in Hospital 9 Bags IV (7 Sodium + 2 Calcium) & it was my friend who called the ambulance, I don't remember it & my memories of the time are very few & hazy. - I take Oral Rehydrate Solution now to try to balance my Electrolytes.

 

Eating Disorders are a Way to Self Harm & a means of Self Destruction, but:-
Life is Better with you in it.

I tried increasing Antidepressant dose & spent 6 weeks with suicidal thoughts & not wanting to be here. The increase failed & 4 of the 6 weeks was waiting for it to leave my system. It's not easy but there are things in life worth living for. Your partner and 3 kids would be a good place for you to start, if you asked them they probably don't think their better off without you.

Your torn muscle needs rest to recover. Compulsive exercise is hard to control, but try running less & within your calorie & safe food limits try to get better nutrition to help your muscle heal. High strength vit C & D will help your body to heal. I use a pure Vit C powder, it's Ascorbic Acid so its sour like vinegar or lemon juice, I use it to fight lung & nasal infections from purging & restricting, I put 1tsp on my tongue & drink water to wash it down, it's easier that diluting it & drinking a sour drink.

Vitamin C 2000mg Powder | Holland & Barrett

Holland & Barrett Vitamin C 2000mg is a super strength immunity powder. Vitamin C contributes to the normal function of the immune system.

www.hollandandbarrett.com

This is available in the UK something similar may be available in Australia.
In answer to your title's question:-





Bradicardia
If I sit still for a while my heart rate decreases to low 40s, 42-45 BMP, & I have bought a Kardia Mobile ECG device to do my own 6 lead ECGs to monitor my heart rate.

Seizure
Was partly due to dropping my alcohol level too fast & partly 2 weeks of B-P + restricting my salt intake. - 2 1/2 Days in Hospital 9 Bags IV (7 Sodium + 2 Calcium) & it was my friend who called the ambulance, I don't remember it & my memories of the time are very few & hazy. - I take Oral Rehydrate Solution now to try to balance my Electrolytes.

I stopped taking antidepressants because I hated the side effects. I tried about 3 different ones over the past 3 years and decided none is better.
The only real reason I purge is for a feeling of control, deep down I don’t want to be skinny. The satisfaction and high I get from a successful purge doesn’t compare to any other feeling.
Apart from my bulimia I’m obsessed with healthy eating and balance in my diet which does cause severe anxiety. Was diagnosed with orthorexia earlier this year.
I lie a lot to my partner, I’m overly secretive. She knows that and has learnt to live with it even though it hurts her. I have actually become very dishonest; stealing, sneaking around, etc. Very selfish.
My heart rate is quite low too. There were times when I hoped my heart would just stop.
I have started taking thiamine, seems to help with cravings somehow.
I’ve found that a mild upper body workout helps distract me and eases my urge for overdoing the physical activity. I’ve noticed a lot more strength in my arms and shoulders.
I still don’t know why I’m so obsessed with all this. I hated being super skinny. Right now I look healthy and it’s fine but still constantly pinching the fat in my stomach.
I just need my hip to recover to give me a little more normality in my life, I need to move the way I used to.

 

If you want to recover, there is an Australian ED resource that I found a while ago:

I have read through part of this one. It is Australian, but my local British ED service has referenced parts of it. This seems to be an official Austrailan ED resource. The Centre for Clinical Interventions, Perth, Western Australia.

Eating Disorders Self-Help Resources - Information Sheets & Workbooks

Self-help resources for addressing disordered eating, developed by clinical psychologists at the Centre for Clinical Interventions in Perth, Western Australia.

www.cci.health.wa.gov.au

The workbook & information sheets & worksheets can be downloaded as PDFs. I use a varient of their worksheet "Self Monitoring Form" as a food diary but use 2 pages/week rather than 1 page/day so I can track my food & ED behaviors.

I am having teams based group sessions at the moment & have been told I have "Clean Eating" which seems to be Orthorexia, I make a lot from scratch & try to avoid UPFs.

Dishonesty; stealing, sneaking around are part of the ED Mind, it wants to protect the Disorder, I'm in my early 50s, & when I go to my parents, I find myself sneaking out to purge in the woods & I'm not sure how to tell my parents I have an ED, its part of the Disorder. In memoirs I've read many patients are criticised by nurses for being manipulative etc.

I use Purging as a Maladaptive Coping Mechanism, & Bingeing is starting to do this aswell, I have used exercise in the past to deall with Emotions. Previous tools included alcohol, tobacco, weed. My ED isn't so much about losing weight as about not gaining it & becoming "Fat", i.e. Fear of Weight Gain, I've hovered around just underweight all my life. I also pinch fat on my stomach, & sometimes other areas, Am I getting Fatter?

EDs can make us Feel in Control & become a Way to Maintain Control, but as they spiral we become out of Control & the ED Controls Us. Purge every few months, every few weeks once a week, most days, every day, several times a day, all day, can't stop. It will go this way if we let it. - I purge 5 days/week, it gradually creeps up on you.

 

If you want to recover, there is an Australian ED resource that I found a while ago:



I am having teams based group sessions at the moment & have been told I have "Clean Eating" which seems to be Orthorexia, I make a lot from scratch & try to avoid UPFs.

Dishonesty; stealing, sneaking around are part of the ED Mind, it wants to protect the Disorder, I'm in my early 50s, & when I go to my parents, I find myself sneaking out to purge in the woods & I'm not sure how to tell my parents I have an ED, its part of the Disorder. In memoirs I've read many patients are criticised by nurses for being manipulative etc.

I use Purging as a Maladaptive Coping Mechanism, & Bingeing is starting to do this aswell, I have used exercise in the past to deall with Emotions. Previous tools included alcohol, tobacco, weed. My ED isn't so much about losing weight as about not gaining it & becoming "Fat", i.e. Fear of Weight Gain, I've hovered around just underweight all my life. I also pinch fat on my stomach, & sometimes other areas, Am I getting Fatter?

EDs can make us Feel in Control & become a Way to Maintain Control, but as they spiral we become out of Control & the ED Controls Us. Purge every few months, every few weeks once a week, most days, every day, several times a day, all day, can't stop. It will go this way if we let it. - I purge 5 days/week, it gradually creeps up on you.

I’m male and 39, it’s good to hear that I’m not alone. I want this to be over but at the same time I’m worried about being okay. Want to be carefree but then what will I have control over.
I purge at least 5 times a week. It’s hard when my wife knows my disorder, she thinks I’m getting better. I haven’t purged with her at home for months, there’s usually only ever a small window of opportunity when I’m alone.
I ate a big dinner tonight and all I want to do is throw it up, it puts me in a very bad headspace.
Thanks for all the wise words and advice.