I haven't taken laxatives in over a year. Last week, I started again. I don't even know why. I feel like I'm rock bottom and know one cares. Make things worse Monday I started feeling the same way I did after my suicide attempt few years ago. Like I'm not even in this world anymore. I feel like I'm trapped between this world and whatever is next. People seem like empty puppets. Nothing has any meaning or substance. I tried to reach out and talk to someone irl, and they just ghosted me. I even hesitated to post this,
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Loving_Insanity
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I understand. I was addicted to stimulant lax (Senna), got off them for maybe a year or two, and started again. Idk why. I know they don't make you lose weight. I just feel so desperate to be "properly empty." I'm sorry you're going through that. Idk if the suicidal empty feeling is related to the lax relapse for you, but I'm sorry you're experiencing that too.
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