I high restrict and am depressed af. I feel like depression/anxiety is inevitable bc your body literally can't produce the hormones it needs to regulate your emotions + your brain can't function properly

 

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I haven't been diagnosed with anorexia, but I have been with depression. I'm just too scared to allow the doctors to know anything about my eating habits or weight.

But I think that I've recovered from my depression so I'm a very happy cookie, but when it comes to my ED, I just... well I try not allow it to dampen my mood. As long as I'm loosing, maintaining and not gaining, I'm happy

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It is very possible but it's also highly unlikely. Most people who are underweight are depressed but not all

 

I'm living proof that it's possible
I don't have depression
That being said though, I'm by no means happy

 

I high restrict and am depressed af. I feel like depression/anxiety is inevitable bc your body literally can't produce the hormones it needs to regulate your emotions + your brain can't function properly

Ikr i totally agree
But the thing is that
If i'm fat (not restricting) then i will KINDA be happy because i will get all The food i want but at the same time i will not be living life, will be fat miserable and yeah depressed
when im high restricting i also feel depressed because brain cant funcion normally... but hey at least i will be thin
So i'd rather restrict
Also i feel like the more i lose the more happy i become, it's like at first it was so fucking hard but the more weight i lose = the happier me. so when i'll reach my gw i'll not be depresed because it will be a total dream come true, i'll be living life
I rememer being at my lowest weight, it didn't make me depressed at all actually it was the only time where i felt so alive

 

I was much happier at the beginning of my eating disorder. But as time went on it just like took over and so I feel like the depression might be hard to fight off the more the ED progresses.

If you focus on other good things in your life maybe it's possible. I have nothing going for me. All I have is my ED. So naturally I'm depressed AF.

 

In my case no, but I have major depression so my ed and depression fed off eachother

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I was happy being anorexic and at a lowest weight. My depression came with gaining.

Being at my lowest weight been the happiest time of my life..

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When my depression got treated my eating disorder got worse and more prominent. I am not currently depressed while fully engaged in my disorder so.. I would say yes.

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When I'm "medium" restricting [500-900 kcal/day], I go into a manic phase and I'm very very happy. It normally lasts around a month before I crash, binge, and become depressed again until I can make myself restrict again.

 

i think it's possible not to have depression. like there's quite a few people with anorexia but not depression. but i don't think it's possible to be happy in general.

like you can be anorexic and not fit the diagnostic criteria for depression, but still be pretty damn miserable.

i can't imagine that someone with AN would be genuinely happy with life?

but i have both so? this is just a guess.

 

Ikr i totally agree
But the thing is that
If i'm fat (not restricting) then i will KINDA be happy because i will get all The food i want but at the same time i will not be living life, will be fat miserable and yeah depressed
when im high restricting i also feel depressed because brain cant funcion normally... but hey at least i will be thin
So i'd rather restrict
Also i feel like the more i lose the more happy i become, it's like at first it was so fucking hard but the more weight i lose = the happier me. so when i'll reach my gw i'll not be depresed because it will be a total dream come true, i'll be living life
I rememer being at my lowest weight, it didn't make me depressed at all actually it was the only time where i felt so alive

that's sooo true, when i gained in recovery i was still so unhappy and anxious bc of my weight/appearance. It's a lose-lose situation. Ideally I guess you get to a point where you can be a healthy weight and also be okay with it?? Sounds like a fantasy rn lmao but maybe someday

 

Ikr i totally agree
But the thing is that
If i'm fat (not restricting) then i will KINDA be happy because i will get all The food i want but at the same time i will not be living life, will be fat miserable and yeah depressed
when im high restricting i also feel depressed because brain cant funcion normally... but hey at least i will be thin
So i'd rather restrict
Also i feel like the more i lose the more happy i become, it's like at first it was so fucking hard but the more weight i lose = the happier me. so when i'll reach my gw i'll not be depresed because it will be a total dream come true, i'll be living life
I rememer being at my lowest weight, it didn't make me depressed at all actually it was the only time where i felt so alive

i guess i agree that at a certain point of being underweight that your body can't function properly. but i suffered from severe depression for years, and tried all kinds of antidepressants and they just didn't work. at one point a doctor suggested remeron or reserpine, i can't remember which but i knew a woman who said, "oh yeah, it works," but she had gained over 100 pounds. another woman in a psych support chat room sang its praises, and then said, "oh yeah, there are no side effects. but i gained 200 lbs." and i said, "well if i weren't already depressed, gaining 200 lbs. would make me want to kill myself," and i promptly got banned from that place. :lol:

wellbutrin works for me but if it had made me gain weight (it didn't) i don't know if i would have continued to take it. i really like not being depressed, but i just can't get with the idea of being overweight and happy. for me the two just don't go together.

 

Currently for me I have both depression and ED. However I had previously had been worse in my ED underwt and happy as a clam. Granted I had a really great boyfriend at the time and was falling in love at the exact time of my relapse so that might of been why.

 

no. eating disorders and depression are highly comorbid. anyone who says they have anorexia and not depression is in denial haha

 

I don`t have depression, I am anxious as fuck but by no means depressed.

But I have days that are worse than others, which we all have.

 

Yes. You can have mania or hypomania.

 

There's been loads of studies linking starvation/malnutrition to depression and anxiety. The effects of starvation on the brain cause the right kinds of imbalances to fuck up your mentality, too. So, whilst technically it is possible, it's very likely that the subsequent numbing of the mind, food obsession etc. caused due to calorie restriction will manifest in depression, anxiety, or, in the very least, an exaggerated unhappiness with life.

Due to the fact that most underweight people generally don't consume enough calories (even if eating maintenance) for their body to function optimally, there can be a subsequent effect on the brain. It's just science, unfortunately~ calorie restriction manifests physically and mentally, and is worsened by anorexic symptoms of anxiety or body dysmorphia or whatever~

Yeah >.<

 

Idk my BMI is a bit under 15 and I feel emotionally the same as with a bmi of 18, as far as I can remember, but my mood depends SO much on what I've eaten, mostly on the "calories so far", but also on what and when and how, and SO much on what's going on with my friends and family, also on what I did for uni, and how many cigs I've smoked, and on my menstrual cycle, on bowel movements, man its such a long list...
but it was similar before I got sick, just without the food stuff... I can be really happy and really sad, changes within minutes...

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Initially I wasn't depressed, it wasn't until my ED was challenged the anxiety and depression surfaced/escalated. Latterly, I was severely depressed - I'd pretty much given up all hope. I was trying to gain some control over my ED but failing miserably.

 

Occasionally it does happen I forget which book I read where the girl absolutely swore she didn't have depression and the doctors were baffled given her low weight (if I remember I'll come back)
But this was one book in all of the ED books I have read! And if you've ever seen the book/film forum you'll see my Kindle and book list now add up about 40 more books I'd guess since then (probably couple hundred in total) and that is 1 out of every one of those books. Every other had depression as a symptom involved (yes, some were fiction but the majority were not)
The body when it is still a little higher BMI could potentially not be depressed for a little while but lower it's almost impossible...also how could the symptoms eventually not get to you depressing you!
I don't know anyone who never had one day when the scale didn't go up a little even if it was just water...if anyone says otherwise Id feel fairly confident calling BS.

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Well I certainly don't have depression. That's probably because my anorexia is a coping strategy which does an excellent job of helping me deal with all the shit that goes on in my life, so as long as I can restrict, even a little bit, I consider myself relatively happy.

 

i have found that when my depression gets better my anorexia gets worse and I actually think anorexia is the best antidepressant ive found even though it doesn't really make sense scientifically