same tbh
after so many years of ED hell and so many health issues I've developed you'd think I would care about the damage I've done to my body but at this point it doesn't even matter, I need to be thin to feel ok and will pay any price to continue my detrimental habits

 

I'm with you 100%

 

Literally, and I'm also suicidal so the warning of "you might die eventually" only encourages me more.

 

Completely relate to this. Although sorry you also feel that way.

 

oh i feel this totally. i genuinely don't care about the health consequences or the fact that i'm shortening my lifespan. i am only hurting myself

 

same
I'm not actively suicidal but I feel that even if I die, I would not really care at this point
I just feel tired of all of this, years of suffering and I can't find motivation or reason to recover

 

Same here, my physical health has never been a concern, I don't mind it getting ruined. Mental aspects may convince me to harm reduction, but physically I don't give a flying fuck.

 

Agreed, the only "health" effects i'm worried about are the ones related to my appearance, such as teeth decay and hair loss. None of which are currently an issue so 🤷‍♂️

 

Same... I don't like the health issues. I'm sure I will be upset when they worsen. But I don't really give a shit. Certainly doesn't discourage me from being disordered. I only sort of try to avoid them enough to continue functioning on a basic level and avoid getting my family involved.

 

lol controversially im against the grain: i do care about adverse health effects of ed

like it will all pile up to be super unmanageable one day

and more expensive

(certain supplements, adult diapers bc incontinence, braces/walking aids, affects work or not working, buying more warm clothes, buying heating products,)

overall having a lot of negative symptoms from ed adds more to ur plate and takes away from quality of life

 

lol controversially im against the grain: i do care about adverse health effects of ed

like it will all pile up to be super unmanageable one day

and more expensive

(certain supplements, adult diapers bc incontinence, braces/walking aids, affects work or not working, buying more warm clothes, buying heating products,)

overall having a lot of negative symptoms from ed adds more to ur plate and takes away from quality of life

Could not agree more with this take - I'm 42 and yep, the adverse health events become ever more unmanageable and likely irreversible whereas tackled sooner there is a good chance of avoiding the worst of permanent life altering effects.

As an example, I am no longer able to work in any meaningful way, looking in the mirror makes me cry with my rotten yellow teeth and severely receded gums. As well as the permanently enlarged parotid glands and therefore enormous jaw line that contrast horribly with the sunken in deathly look of my upper face. Bones are also fucked and it's only a matter of time before I break a hip or something similarly serious that would leave me unable to move normally and have to deal with the weight gain that would come with that. Heart also v damaged so feel I am on borrowed time, living with that fear every day is horrendous. I'm scared to fall asleep in case I don't wake up.

While hearing about these effects may still not carry any weight in motivating you, I guarantee that at some point you will start to feel them in a way that is unbearable...by that point it will be (near) impossible to reverse them.

 

I'm technically AN-bp but feel more bulimic so I kinda don't care about the restrictive parts of my ED. I am exhausted by all the b/ping and worried about my teeth, but instead of recovery im more turned towards restricting :/

 

Yeah, I've had this ed way too long to care anymore. I was told it will likely kill me if I don't change things and tbh it sounds like relief. I mean I want to stay as independent as I can for as long as possible to care for my horses, but if the worst case scenario is death, that's fine. Better than this never ending hell.

 

I get you. I’m in the exact same boat and mindset. None of that stuff scares me either — as long as I’m thin, that’s all that matters to me too! 😐🖤

 

agreed. idgaf anymore. i do so much stupid shit that could actively kill me and i literally just. don't care.

 

literallyyyy

my health is objectively better now than preED (i have NAFLD and my blood markers r better rn). and the health issues caused by restriction r lowkey permanent (did low res like an idiot the first time) so recovery isnt gonna do shit.

also ive been planning on killing myself when i turn 18 since i was in middle school so idgaf. rn its postponed til 25. either i die w a bullet in my chest, from ed complications, or a random event who even gaf

 

literallyyyy

my health is objectively better now than preED (i have NAFLD and my blood markers r better rn). and the health issues caused by restriction r lowkey permanent (did low res like an idiot the first time) so recovery isnt gonna do shit.

also ive been planning on killing myself when i turn 18 since i was in middle school so idgaf. rn its postponed til 25. either i die w a bullet in my chest, from ed complications, or a random event who even gaf

yeah i plan on 30 i wanna look young forever and be remember young, thin and pretty. i don’t wanna get old and be ugly

 

Well I’ve experienced that when they come along I really really really really really do care 😅 hopefully I’m not alone..

 

I really hope that everyone above stays safe because some effects can be irreversible and dangerous, having an ed will eventually take every single joy of life away from you and even add more burdens like heart issues, weak bones, lack of muscle, hair loss, rotten teeth, receding gums, broken and peeling skin, blue undertone, fainting, getting sick easier, joint pain, eyesight problems, constant pain, and much more...thinness might feel like everything but it really isn't, granted that this is a mental illness and no one chooses this on purpose so I just really hope that fellow members on this forum and people above who commented that they don't really care much stay safe and take care for as long as possible ❤ your lives are important, you matter