Does anyone else who isn't close to their goal weight feel as though they're an abomination? I wake up wishing I was had never existed because I'm reminded by how imperfect I am and the world around me only makes it worse. My body feels like a cramped prison cell with no way out and now I don't want to leave home but I have to work eventually to make a living. It feels like everytime I turn over in my bed at night I can feel the fat busting away at the seams. I don't want to die in this current body and be an eye sore but it sure is hard living this way for now. I hope that I can reach my goal weight in a realistic matter of time without trouble because right now I am starting to regret not taking the initiative to leave this place forever last year but I know I'm far too scared to ever commit to something so permanent.
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I feel the same w the gw stuff :/
Though you shouldn't be thinking about ending yourself. As hard as it is to believe (because trust me, I was there) there are many more things to live for other than weight and appearances. Think of all the people who's lives your a part of and who cherish you or all the people who your yet to meet who will love you. The experiences you'll be missing out on. And if not that at least living to see that goal ig. Even though u probably know this pls try and find some help bc even when you don't want to commit, thinking like that is painful <3
Though you shouldn't be thinking about ending yourself. As hard as it is to believe (because trust me, I was there) there are many more things to live for other than weight and appearances. Think of all the people who's lives your a part of and who cherish you or all the people who your yet to meet who will love you. The experiences you'll be missing out on. And if not that at least living to see that goal ig. Even though u probably know this pls try and find some help bc even when you don't want to commit, thinking like that is painful <3
I do feel the same about my weight. I am having a really hard time right now which is causing me to emotionally eat which makes it worse, because now life is hard AND I'm fat. I can't even be vain and like oh well at least I'm pretty. It really sucks. You are 100% worthy of life and happiness and so am I. No buts. Doesn't feel like it sometimes though, I get it.
No matter what you weigh, even if you are at your GW or whatever, you won't feel valid, your body will feel like this I'd imagine while you're still suffering from an ED. Try to think of yourself from your body, and remember it's your ED making you feel rubbish, not your actual weight. Sending love x
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