This might not even be ortho, I really don’t know because I haven’t seen anyone for my eating disorder since I was a teenager (I’m 27 now). But I spend all my free time reading about robots, watching futuristic tv shows, browsing pinterest and saving pins that look clean and plastic and sterile. I know I have ocd, but for me its really anxiety based and my need to feel clean and real. Every time I go to the store I freak out scanning everything with Yuka to see how toxic it is, if it’ll make my insides dirty, and usually leave with just about nothing. I do this and under eat until I lose control and binge on junk food from the minimart because I’m starving and then I have to take shower after shower scrubbing myself to feel clean again. I fast after binges until I’m SURE all of the poison is out of me too.
I just want to be and feel clean. If a company approached me asking if I’d like to be part of a trial experiment where they transferred consciousness into a robot body made of plastic and electronics, I’d sign my soul away faster than I could blink. Anything to get out of this nasty prison where anyone can touch my skin and I can’t get clean inside and everything that fuels it also kills it.
Is there any type of futuristic diet that’s trending right now? Anything that’s like a nutritional paste that‘s only ground up vitamins and calories, nothing more and doesn’t have any toxic additives in it? I’m really at the end here, if there anything at all like a smoothie or paste that’s JUST the essentials, I would buy it asap. Any suggestions would help tremendously, it wouldn’t be encouraging me, it would be helping tremendously so I could stop freaking out about what’s going into my body. Please help!
I just want to be and feel clean. If a company approached me asking if I’d like to be part of a trial experiment where they transferred consciousness into a robot body made of plastic and electronics, I’d sign my soul away faster than I could blink. Anything to get out of this nasty prison where anyone can touch my skin and I can’t get clean inside and everything that fuels it also kills it.
Is there any type of futuristic diet that’s trending right now? Anything that’s like a nutritional paste that‘s only ground up vitamins and calories, nothing more and doesn’t have any toxic additives in it? I’m really at the end here, if there anything at all like a smoothie or paste that’s JUST the essentials, I would buy it asap. Any suggestions would help tremendously, it wouldn’t be encouraging me, it would be helping tremendously so I could stop freaking out about what’s going into my body. Please help!