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I cant stop judging other peoples bodies. I feel really bad

1.5K views 25 replies 16 participants last post by  AbsMadeInTheKitchen  
#1 ·
Like this girl in my yoga class is overweight or obese, cant telll which one and I feel really bad because she's really sweet and I actually like her a lot but sometimes ill be talking to her and I look down at her belly or I watch her stuffing her face. I FEEL AWFUL. I would never say any of the things im thinking out loud but my perception on even other peoples bodies is really warped now and I want to stop judging them because im really not that kind of person. All i really care about is peoples peronalitys when it comes to friendships.

am i a horrible person???

sorry for typois im drunk as hell lol
 
#3 ·
Nah you're not horrible. It's natural to react to someone who is obviously overweight. As long as you don't say anything you're good.
 
#4 ·
I actually have a friend who is MORBIDLY obese like im guessing she is at least 300 pounds, but she is so fucking beautiful and I love her a lot but I feel grossed out sometimes by her body and it makes me feel like an awful person.

maybe im really deep into my eating disorder right now.... because a year ago I never did this
 
#7 ·
I try not to do that...but this one girl I work with called me a cow and in my head I thought "who are you calling a cow you fucking fat ass??" (She's slightly overweight.) this girl is just a fucking bitch in general and kind of deserves it. She's always talking shit about me. I think she suspects I have an ED and likes triggering me. Cunt.
 
#8 ·
Let me tell u something.
When I walk around the hallways at school, my brain goes into overdrive....
"That girl doesn't have a thigh gap"
"She's too fat"
"Her stomach's bigger than mine"
"I have fatter arms than she does"
"Her hair is gross"
"She dresses weird"
All of that is going on inside me. And u know what? I don't care. No one's gonna hear it. And our brain naturally judges others' it's what we do. Don't feel bad at all. Sometimes you have to make fun of others' in your head to feel better about yourself. As long as you don't say it out loud ;)
 
#9 ·
Let me tell u something.
When I walk around the hallways at school, my brain goes into overdrive....
"That girl doesn't have a thigh gap"
"She's too fat"
"Her stomach's bigger than mine"
"I have fatter arms than she does"
"Her hair is gross"
"She dresses weird"
All of that is going on inside me. And u know what? I don't care. No one's gonna hear it. And our brain naturally judges others' it's what we do. Don't feel bad at all. Sometimes you have to make fun of others' in your head to feel better about yourself. As long as you don't say it out loud ;)
Yeah true...

I would never say what I think out loud
 
#10 ·
Dude, I feel ya.

There's this obese girl in my class and I can't help but find her really annoying. Usually I don't care about other people's weight because I know it's none of my business, but this one girl... I know my bias against her is over her weight, but everything she does ticks me off. Fucked up, right? Especially considering my two best friends are over weight and I don't think anything of it.
 
#11 ·
Thoughts are just thoughts. Intrusive thoughts are awkward, but in the end, it's not something you can help and it doesn't affect anyone else.

As long as you don't turn thoughts into hurtful actions, you're okay.

You're a good kind of person.
 
#13 ·
Actually, you sound like a good person. A "bad person" (the kind you're talking about) would be like "Okay so this girl in my yoga class is fat and it disgusts me I cant talk to her or be seen with her because she's fat". You feel guilt and you don't actually judge her. You said it yourself that you only care about personality. You simply see her fat.
 
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#14 ·
Well, I'm verified on Reddit's fatpeoplehate forum, so... Yeah, I judge other people's bodies all the time.

I do feel bad, because so many overweight/obese people are lovely people and truly do have good personalities. Sometimes even more so because of the fat - I think that sometimes, bullied people are nicer because they know how it feels to be rejected. Fat people definitely experience this, and it's partly my fault. So the cycle goes on.
 
#16 ·
You know what, that's honestly just human nature. I look at other girls all the time and constantly compare myself against them. Are they skinnier than me or heavier, those kinds of thoughts are almost ALWAYS on when I'm around other girls. It makes me kind of miserable once I realize what I was doing, but I don't really know how to stop it. I would say to you though, that's just you being observant and visually pointing out things to yourself that's a stark contrast from how you live. Don't worry too much :)
 
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#17 ·
You're not horrible. Sometimes I notice my best friend who is obese wear something like leggings and I say "I would have a panic attack if I had to wear those" and I'm a lot smaller than her. BUT I also realize what I say and always tell her I admire her for her self confidence. She knows I'm not trying to be mean and that I have sever self esteem issues, I don't deserve a good friend like her >_<
 
#18 ·
Well, I'm verified on Reddit's fatpeoplehate forum, so... Yeah, I judge other people's bodies all the time.

I do feel bad, because so many overweight/obese people are lovely people and truly do have good personalities. Sometimes even more so because of the fat - I think that sometimes, bullied people are nicer because they know how it feels to be rejected. Fat people definitely experience this, and it's partly my fault. So the cycle goes on.
Im also on reddits fat people hate fourm, I post on it sometimes. I dont actually hate fat people I just find it funny and thats the only place I can really get my thoughts out
 
#20 ·
ooc

I think judging has a really bad rep. There really is nothing wrong with having an opinion on how someone presents themself to the world. For example, that fat girl you spoke of. From the description you gave me, she has no self-respect nor any discipline. Nothing respectable there.

You are "that type of person." Because we all are. Doesn't make you horrible or good or whatever, you are simply human.
 
#21 ·
Well, I'm verified on Reddit's fatpeoplehate forum, so... Yeah, I judge other people's bodies all the time.

I do feel bad, because so many overweight/obese people are lovely people and truly do have good personalities. Sometimes even more so because of the fat - I think that sometimes, bullied people are nicer because they know how it feels to be rejected. Fat people definitely experience this, and it's partly my fault. So the cycle goes on.
Heh.I imagine that the glorious mods over there would ban you for that.
 
#22 ·
Because I'm overly concerned and ridiculously observant about my own appearence, I notice everything and usually with the same eyes I critique myself with. Lately I've been doing something really gross which is judge girls who are already really skinny. I don't mean on this site but people in my real life. People I used to think were extremely thin, I think are much fatter now since I've started restricting heavily. I hate that I do that but I think that's how I talk myself into pushing forward.
 
#23 ·
I can't eat with m mom 'cause all I end up thinking is "You're so fat. i'm eating the same thing as you. I'M GONNA END UP FAT"

Sadly, there is no way to politely call your own mother fat, and to fuck off when I'm eating because your huge gut gives me so much goddamn anxiety.
 
#24 · (Edited by Moderator)
if it makes you feel better everyone does that - just with different things like im sure a random girl on the street looks at everyones hair, clothes, makeup, etc and someone else might judge another person on their looks and so on

we're all human

i do it too and sometimes it makes me feel bad but other times it just motivates me to not eat...sorry youre bigger than me but thanks for the motivation?
 
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#26 · (Edited)
I do it a lot! My two main areas of judgment (sounds so terrible):

1) When a super fit/pretty girl lets herself go when she gets a boyfriend and I can tell he loves her and wants to be with her but he's getting the wandering eye (I want to tell her girl put down the ramen!)

2) When girls brag about being thick or having big boobs - it doesn't count that if you have tons of rolls and jiggly bits!