During the process it's fine for me.
But the day after having several sessions purging until nothing but water mixed with acid comes out of my mouth is cruel.
My throat hurts from my toothbrush violently hitting against and scratching it, my stomach is hard and hurts as well. I feel every organ inside my body and I can locate exactly where they are. My face is swollen, my hands are dry, the light hurts in my eyes.
And ofc how could I forget: the mental pain and the guilt is way worse than all the physical stuff unfortunetly.
But the day after having several sessions purging until nothing but water mixed with acid comes out of my mouth is cruel.
My throat hurts from my toothbrush violently hitting against and scratching it, my stomach is hard and hurts as well. I feel every organ inside my body and I can locate exactly where they are. My face is swollen, my hands are dry, the light hurts in my eyes.
And ofc how could I forget: the mental pain and the guilt is way worse than all the physical stuff unfortunetly.
