I've been relapsing lately, which in itself sucks. I went into recovery, and genuinely was doing well for about 5 months, and then noticed how much bigger my body was, how many new stretchmarks I had developed, and the strain that this weight gain put on my body... so I did what I always do.
It started small, just here and there purging when I just couldn't take the feeling of being full, but it's slowly turned into an after-every-meal ritual. The late night binges lead to purging for hours straight. It's exhausting.
I'm in college. I have myself on a dining plan. I put myself on this dining plan before I relapsed, thinking it would be good to always have food at my disposal so I didn't have to focus on cooking all the time. Boy, did I set myself up for failure.
If you're in college, you've probably heard of YikYak. It's an anonymous app where you sign up with your college email and post under pseudonyms about campus, parties, life, etc. It's typically pretty tame. A lot of sororities/frats use it to dog on other sororities and frats.
Typically it's silly things. But, today, I did my normal rounds. I went to the dining hall/cafeteria for breakfast. My first class is at 11:00, so I try to get there around 10:25, because they start to put out lunch/brunch items, and I don't like breakfast food very much. So I ate, and I purged, but I left at like 10:47, and still had to make it across the campus to my class, and so I walked there, and I check my phone halfway through my class, and someone had posted anonymously "Can fat Sabrina Carpenter stop throwing up all over the specific dining hall toilet seat?"
1) FAT SABRINA CARPENTER IS CRAZY WORK
2) I cleaned up after myself 😭 I'm so embarrassed.
It started small, just here and there purging when I just couldn't take the feeling of being full, but it's slowly turned into an after-every-meal ritual. The late night binges lead to purging for hours straight. It's exhausting.
I'm in college. I have myself on a dining plan. I put myself on this dining plan before I relapsed, thinking it would be good to always have food at my disposal so I didn't have to focus on cooking all the time. Boy, did I set myself up for failure.
If you're in college, you've probably heard of YikYak. It's an anonymous app where you sign up with your college email and post under pseudonyms about campus, parties, life, etc. It's typically pretty tame. A lot of sororities/frats use it to dog on other sororities and frats.
Typically it's silly things. But, today, I did my normal rounds. I went to the dining hall/cafeteria for breakfast. My first class is at 11:00, so I try to get there around 10:25, because they start to put out lunch/brunch items, and I don't like breakfast food very much. So I ate, and I purged, but I left at like 10:47, and still had to make it across the campus to my class, and so I walked there, and I check my phone halfway through my class, and someone had posted anonymously "Can fat Sabrina Carpenter stop throwing up all over the specific dining hall toilet seat?"
1) FAT SABRINA CARPENTER IS CRAZY WORK
2) I cleaned up after myself 😭 I'm so embarrassed.
pathetic that college aged people are behaving like this
