I always stop myself from eating because I feel like needing the sensation of taste is weakness, like it's selfish and I don't need it, I'm stronger than that. And the only thing that's ok to eat is whatever I've already planned the night before; the exact food and portions, because it's not impulsive.
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kittensalmon
Yes i feel like that so much
I also think people eating is so gross. Like when there's food at a party and everyone's behaving like an animal trying to get food and as much as possible. Ugh
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I also think people eating is so gross. Like when there's food at a party and everyone's behaving like an animal trying to get food and as much as possible. Ugh
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I met a woman in treatment who was in a car accident and had a facial injury and as a result had no sense of taste. I can't even imagine how hard recovery must've been for her and how easy it must of been for her to restrict. she was very emaciated.
Yes! I really feel as if giving into good tasting food over healthy food is like admitting defeat.
Goodness that poor woman
I'd be lying if I didn't say my ed is making me a bit jealous of her thoG
to be honest I was quite jealous as well though I did feel very bad for her especially as she was trying to recover. she could hardly eat many of the foods and it took her a long time as her facial injuries left her teeth in very poor shape, I felt so bad.Goodness that poor woman
I'm the opposite, I found strength in training my taste buds to reject the sugary, salty, greasy foods and enjoy, moreso than tolerate, healthy foods like buttery mache lettuce and bitter bok choy.
In 1993, Wilson reviewed the scientific research on binge eating and found the theory that foods cause physical cravings was "without convincing empirical support." In l994, Nobel et al at UCLA discovered that some obese adults who were "bingeing on dense carbohydrates" and who were neither alcoholic nor drug addicted had the same D2 dopamine gene marker that distinguished alcoholism and other drug addictions. In the following years, Hoebel et al at Princeton reviewed 251 animal studies designed to mimic human ingestion of sugar and found positive indication of physical craving. More recently, Ahmed's research in France showed that intense sweetness - not just refined sugar, but also artificial sweeteners - surpasses cocaine as a reward in laboratory animals. Just this year (2009), Leibowitz of Rockefeller University demonstrated that overconsumption of fats can be correlated with brain systems which, when activated, further stimulate the intake of fat. Gold at the University of Florida presented summaries of the brain imaging research at several leading universities showing that "palatable food" created the same types of changes in the dopamine receptors of the human brain as alcohol and other widely recognized addictive substances. And a series of studies by Wang of the Brookhaven Institute now demonstrates that those with severe problems with foods can be triggered simply by viewing pictures of the foods on which they tend most often to binge. At such times, their brains look like they are already experiencing a state of biochemical craving.
In 1993, Wilson reviewed the scientific research on binge eating and found the theory that foods cause physical cravings was "without convincing empirical support." In l994, Nobel et al at UCLA discovered that some obese adults who were "bingeing on dense carbohydrates" and who were neither alcoholic nor drug addicted had the same D2 dopamine gene marker that distinguished alcoholism and other drug addictions. In the following years, Hoebel et al at Princeton reviewed 251 animal studies designed to mimic human ingestion of sugar and found positive indication of physical craving. More recently, Ahmed's research in France showed that intense sweetness - not just refined sugar, but also artificial sweeteners - surpasses cocaine as a reward in laboratory animals. Just this year (2009), Leibowitz of Rockefeller University demonstrated that overconsumption of fats can be correlated with brain systems which, when activated, further stimulate the intake of fat. Gold at the University of Florida presented summaries of the brain imaging research at several leading universities showing that "palatable food" created the same types of changes in the dopamine receptors of the human brain as alcohol and other widely recognized addictive substances. And a series of studies by Wang of the Brookhaven Institute now demonstrates that those with severe problems with foods can be triggered simply by viewing pictures of the foods on which they tend most often to binge. At such times, their brains look like they are already experiencing a state of biochemical craving.
I can totally relate! For me, my birth defect left me with an incredibly strong sense of taste and smell which I think is equally triggering for eds.
As a kid, I could smell that my parents have been eating gummy bears like 6 hrs ago - which meant that I was disgusted the whole time. It's kind of hard to enjoy a meal when you still smell the last one anyone had. The smell of anything I eat just stays in my nose for quite a long time, too. So as a child, I tried to pick things that tasted very little. I never ate when my parents didn't force me to.
I was thrilled when I finally moved out and thought I'd never have to eat anything "smelly" again. So I basically stopped eating because I never found anything totally tasteless. That led to me binging whenever someone was watching and expected me to eat, cause once there was a smell, it didn't matter how much I ate. I always told myself I could eat like once a week and then enjoy the rest of it. One day I felt awfully full and scared that if I gained, people would expect me to eat even more, so I tried purging - BIG mistake. I discovered that the stomach acid kind of blocked my sense of smell (Has anyone experienced the same? Smelling nothing at all after purging?)
Since then, it's basically eating nothing at all or b/p since these are the only things I'm comfortable with.
Sorry for the long post :blink: Reading this kind of made me emotional
Btw: there's one smell I love and I wouldn't mind if it stayed there forever: Coffee :wub:
As a kid, I could smell that my parents have been eating gummy bears like 6 hrs ago - which meant that I was disgusted the whole time. It's kind of hard to enjoy a meal when you still smell the last one anyone had. The smell of anything I eat just stays in my nose for quite a long time, too. So as a child, I tried to pick things that tasted very little. I never ate when my parents didn't force me to.
I was thrilled when I finally moved out and thought I'd never have to eat anything "smelly" again. So I basically stopped eating because I never found anything totally tasteless. That led to me binging whenever someone was watching and expected me to eat, cause once there was a smell, it didn't matter how much I ate. I always told myself I could eat like once a week and then enjoy the rest of it. One day I felt awfully full and scared that if I gained, people would expect me to eat even more, so I tried purging - BIG mistake. I discovered that the stomach acid kind of blocked my sense of smell (Has anyone experienced the same? Smelling nothing at all after purging?)
Since then, it's basically eating nothing at all or b/p since these are the only things I'm comfortable with.
Sorry for the long post :blink: Reading this kind of made me emotional
Btw: there's one smell I love and I wouldn't mind if it stayed there forever: Coffee :wub:
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Yeah but some times I feel like I NEED to give in. Its horrible. Also I hate at school when people are like "Join our club! We have food!" And people only go for the food. I don't want it as an incentive and it makes me not want to join any clubs
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