I just cried earlier bc my weight is up 2.5 lbs from yesterday and I had a meal anyway and I feel so guilty and like such a failure. I know it's not real weight, there's no way I ate like 9k cals over my TDEE. I know 2.5 lbs doesn't show anyway even if it were real weight. I know nobody gives a fuck except me. But I just felt so devastated and disappointed with myself. So yeah. You're not the only one.

 

Yeah. It gets rough these days. I've gained. It's like hell for me. I am not understood by anyone but I suffer a lot from this. I wish I could dissociate or distract myself but I can't stop feeling I am in my own body. It disgusts me utterly.

 

I have no more energy for crying. But sometimes I wish I had.

 

Yes 😭🥺 someone asked why my day was ruined or why I was so sad (after crying alone) and of course I couldn’t say it was because of the scale going up. The struggle is so real my friend, you are not alone. 🫶🏼

 

YES i feel like a crybaby, and i also never want to be seen by anyone when i gain weight and i get so scared to go outside (even when there’s no way that a 2 lb weight gain is eye catching to people)

 

More than I want to admit. A single pound, even if it's only water retention or poop weight, has made me crumble before as dramatic as it sounds. You're not alone, and I'm sorry everyone in this thread knows the struggle.

 

No, but I literally cannot cry about anything right now. I don't know whether the anhedonia is from restricting or my generally terrible mental health.

 

every time the scale goes up i say out loud to myself "guess i'll just kill myself"

 

I know what you mean. I get very angry, though. Not sure what I’d rather lol