Omg yes. I want to be a damn stick because I feel like it fits my personality better. I have D/DD boobs and everything looks slutty on me. I want to be able to wear cute bralettes and not have to struggle to find a grandma-looking bra. And bathing suits? Forget it. I need like a large top and small bottoms.

 

I don't have huge curves but I like the ones I have, I wouldn't wanna have none. I personally like tiny waists with bigger hips

 

Would you consider wearing a binder and/or taking testosterone (that one's a bit more out there) and/or a hysterectomy. You don't have to want to switch your name/pronouns to wear a binder.

 

Omg yes. I want to be a damn stick because I feel like it fits my personality better. I have D/DD boobs and everything looks slutty on me. I want to be able to wear cute bralettes and not have to struggle to find a grandma-looking bra. And bathing suits? Forget it. I need like a large top and small bottoms.

same here! I'm 5'1 with DDD boobs. the size did go up last year because i gained so much weight, but when i was at my LW i went from a C cup to a DD. so it doesnt really have anything to do with my weight its just genetics for me which suck

 

Yep. I thought I was a trans male for years because of how strongly I hate my hips. I just wanna look like a skinny emo boy 😂😂😂 But I'm not, that's just how I feel about my body, I still identify as non binary, but not male...

 

I absolutely hate having curves, I just want my body to be completely straight... :-(

 

personally i don't want to have an androgynous looking body- i want some curves but not to be soft or squishy at all.

 

I don't want an ass or thighs. I hate being thick and squishy. If I could have small thighs and a small butt at a healthy weight I would but it's just not possible with my body shape. I mostly don't want to be viewed sexually. I'm sick of it.

 

I used to be hour glass and that makes my frame just look super wide even though I'm underweight

I look so square ;((

 

I actually like it tbh

 

I feel like I look best around 120 lbs because I still have that hourglass shape with none of the fat. but i've definitely gone through phases of just honestly hating it to death.

 

I'm okay with having some curves but I absolutely hate my breasts. I used to wear a binder until I wore it so much it ripped. For a while I was really confused about my gender and whether I was trans but I know now it's just my breasts, they just feel like lumps of fat that make me look like a pig. They aren't even big I think I have a small torso they just look so weird.. The feeling of touching them makes me cringe, I wish I had little cute breasts maybe I could live with that. Sorry for the rant!

 

Yes,
I think I would look disgusting with 'real' boobs and more fat and I don't want to get my period, although I do want to be a female. I also like wearing fairly androgynous and plain, dark clothing, don't wear any makeup ( unless I am acting in which case I totally ham it up and go crazy when it makes sense ) ( I'm not an actor or anything, didn't mean to humblebrag there literally just like summer camps and stuff ) sorry I am getting off track....

Like, other people can totally look fine like that, but not me?? I do like having a small waist though. And I want a 'feminine' face.. but like 0 body fat, which obviously makes me look more masculine? It's confusing.

Oh and sorry, editing to say I deal with it by strength incessantly, obsessing over my weight and body fat and protein and calories and nutrients, leading to maintaining an objectively underweight ( but still fat looking whyyyy ) weight.
I have managed to avoid getting a period and fully developed breasts up to this point, but you could probably 'reverse' that, meaning lose enough weight and fat to remove those characteristics, ****IF**** you are willing to sacrifice your health and longevity, which is probably a terrible idea and I'm a hypocrite but, don't do it.

 

Would you consider wearing a binder and/or taking testosterone (that one's a bit more out there) and/or a hysterectomy. You don't have to want to switch your name/pronouns to wear a binder.

I'm definitely considering a hysterectomy because getting my period is really affecting my health and making my anorexia worse. It is the only time I can tolerate myself is at the lowest of weights which isn;t sustainable. yet if i gain weight, even now I am a BMI of 17.5, I can't stand how my body still is "curvy" yet sort of bony. I will never truly be "not curvy"... Having less fat on my body helps greatly though. I wear compression garments which help when it is NOT summer. I don't feel my body jiggle when I move around which freaks me out so much. The summer is triggering as it's unavoidable to wear less clothes/ can not self-harm. I end up restricting the most then.

 

personally i don't want to have an androgynous looking body- i want some curves but not to be soft or squishy at all.

So like a muscular build yet with some curves? this helps me the more I exercise it helps counteract the curves if that makes sense.

 

So like a muscular build yet with some curves? this helps me the more I exercise it helps counteract the curves if that makes sense.

not even muscle necessarily, but more like i wish i could change my body type/shape altogether :lol: smaller waist but not super-tiny hips, i guess.

and yes that makes total sense!

 

It's always seemed to me like a common cause of eating disorders in women is a rejection of "womanhood", either because of a sexual assualt and the subsequent desire to be unappealing sexually to your abuser, or a strong dislike of how women are expected to act and the roles they're expected to take on in society.
Personally I do feel like my ED stems partially from my disgust with pregnancy and babies and a desire to never ever ever become a housewife.
Edit: Obvi there are other reasons women with eating disorders might want to not be feminine, just some musings/generalizations based on what I've observed.

 

I hate having boobs,well not always but it makes excercise irritating and just reminds me that I'm fat.

 

If you want to not have your period and also try and maintain a healthier weight have you tried birth control? I remember when I was on the shot (Depovera) my period pretty much went away with the exception of a tiny amount of spotting.

 

Yesssss. I want to cut my damn hips off.

 

I don't want an ass or thighs. I hate being thick and squishy. If I could have small thighs and a small butt at a healthy weight I would but it's just not possible with my body shape. I mostly don't want to be viewed sexually. I'm sick of it.

THIS! Thankfully I already have smaller breasts but I have wide hips and (according to my friend) "thicc thighs." I HATE IT SO MUCH. I know I don't want to be a man, but I just hate having curves so much. I'm so glad I'm not the only one that is ok with their gender, just wants a more androgynous look

 

i'm a flat stick and i hate it. like why don't i just have small curves? since my weightloss began everything i ever had (which wasn't much) i lost. the boys in school always make jokes about me being flat i look like a 12 year old girl but on the other side having curves also means extra weight and i really don't need that. i don't know how to feel about being a stick but i hope that i will lose my period as soon as i hit my goalweight!

 

I have 75B Eur size boobs and my jeans are small size but I still think I have too much bum and boobs. Why if they’re so “small”? Welp because I wanna look like a child, I know it’s because of my trauma but I can’t help it, having an adult body stresses me to no end. I want to be a complete plank.

 

I mean, guys seem to loove it. And I like guys so I’m kinda stuck because personally I hate having fat thighs. I wouldn’t mind being orherwise stick thin with curves in the “right” places (ie. A perky butt lol)

 

this is very relatable i developed really fast which i always read is a big trigger for many people developing EDs. i like being a girl im fine with my gender but i also badly want an androgynous body. i have always been curvy and had big hips and huge boobs and i hate it. i badly want to wear crop tops and bralettes without it being sexual. im also pretty disgusted by my period. i just wanna have lil a or b cups and lil narrow hips and shoulders.