So i was thinking about creating a blog like this for probably longer than I should have.
The truth is, there's a lot going on in my life and I don't want to litter my personal diary with endless entries about calories and food and my thoughts on relapsing, possibly recovering etc. I know I'll cringe at myself in just a matter of days. Throwing it out in the open in here seems like a better idea.
So, for an introduction: I'm 21 years old, currently in uni. I attempted recovery and was actually doing pretty good for a couple of years, but here I am again. I honestly think I was looking for an excuse to relapse, or maybe my apparent recovery wasn't as truthful as I told myself it was. Or maybe I wasn't "sick enough", maybe there wasn't anything to recover from. And now the smallest shit was enough for me to decide it's time to ruin myself again.
Another thing is I'm a cheap ass bitch, my goal is to save as much money this month as possible. I just got paid, so tomorrow I'm going out to buy a scale and I'll be tracking both my calories eaten as well as money eaten.
I'm 165 cm (5'5"), my hw was probably something around 63 kg (139 lbs), my cw will be updated as soon as I get a scale. Ugw is 45 kg (99 lbs).
30/12/2022
Calories eaten: 702
Money eaten: Not counting just yet
Exercise: Null lmao, lazing around all day
Weight: ???
Breakfast: tomato (25) + cucumber (12) + hard-boiled egg (76)
Dinner: boiled potatoes (79) + fried eggs (162) + broccoli (39) + oil (9)
Snack: quarter of a sweet bun (75) + two slices of toast (110) + ham (31) + tomato (8)
The truth is, there's a lot going on in my life and I don't want to litter my personal diary with endless entries about calories and food and my thoughts on relapsing, possibly recovering etc. I know I'll cringe at myself in just a matter of days. Throwing it out in the open in here seems like a better idea.
So, for an introduction: I'm 21 years old, currently in uni. I attempted recovery and was actually doing pretty good for a couple of years, but here I am again. I honestly think I was looking for an excuse to relapse, or maybe my apparent recovery wasn't as truthful as I told myself it was. Or maybe I wasn't "sick enough", maybe there wasn't anything to recover from. And now the smallest shit was enough for me to decide it's time to ruin myself again.
Another thing is I'm a cheap ass bitch, my goal is to save as much money this month as possible. I just got paid, so tomorrow I'm going out to buy a scale and I'll be tracking both my calories eaten as well as money eaten.
I'm 165 cm (5'5"), my hw was probably something around 63 kg (139 lbs), my cw will be updated as soon as I get a scale. Ugw is 45 kg (99 lbs).
30/12/2022
Calories eaten: 702
Money eaten: Not counting just yet
Exercise: Null lmao, lazing around all day
Weight: ???
Breakfast: tomato (25) + cucumber (12) + hard-boiled egg (76)
Dinner: boiled potatoes (79) + fried eggs (162) + broccoli (39) + oil (9)
Snack: quarter of a sweet bun (75) + two slices of toast (110) + ham (31) + tomato (8)