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  1. Starting at a higher BMI
    10.28.2020 (11:21 P.M.) Hello everyone! My name is Jess! I'm almost 21 years old but I've been on this website on and off since I was 12 or 13 years old. When I first found this website I was around 160lbs and I wanted to get down to 100lbs as fast as I could possibly do so... I was searching...
  2. Anorexia Discussions
    I had this day like a week ago now where I just felt like total shit and I felt disgusting and like I just never wanted anybody to look at me again. I thought it would pass and it would just be a particularly bad day, but its been a week and I just can't seem to fucking snap out of it. I feel...
  3. Anorexia Discussions
    Last night I binged. I'm pretty sure I stayed under 1000 cal and if I didn't I def stayed under 1200. Today when I woke up and stepped on the scale I was two pounds heavier than yesterday and realistically I know I probably didn't gain real weight but I just feel so bloated and disgusting today...
  4. EDNOS Discussions
    I fasted today, and just weighed myself for the first time in about a week. I am at 130 pounds, according to my scale. I pray it's wrong, because that is so far beyond my highest weight, and is a weight I never, ever wanted to reach. I am horrified and disgusted. I exercise, I count calories, I...
  5. Food
    I had some Haagan-Dazs "Ruby Cacao" ice cream in one of the little containers. I've been eating small bits of it for about a week now, and came to the conclusion tonight that I do not like it. It - to me - tastes like the way a sink smells when you allow the water or drain to get moldy. It's...
  6. Starting at a higher BMI
    So I was making an album of body checks and I'm looking through all of my full body pics and I'm having a panic attack realizing just how ugly I am. I feel ashamed to go outside like I don't want anyone to see me at all. I'm 173 so I'm actually overweight and I'm conscious of this but seeing it...
  7. BED Discussions
    The day after a binge, do you feel ashamed to leave your home and let everyone see you? Or you just don't give a fuck? I personally feel very ashamed that people see my bloating face and body as a result of eating like a pig the day before. I become almost paranoid and I feel that everyone...
  8. Movies and TV Shows
    I knew what "The Green Inferno" was about, I knew the storyline, I knew what was going to happen. I knew the paralels it drew to "Cannibal Holocaust". And yet I'm watching it, anyway. Forty-six minutes left, and I am more uncomfortable than I've been in a long time in regards to a movie. . . Not...
  9. Anorexia Discussions
    I'm not usually one for dramatics, but I just finished getting dressed. I put on my jeans, and the tightness I feel has made me disgusted with myself. (Though that's nothing new.) Logically, I know it's just because I washed them and then stuck them in the drier, so they are a little tighter...
  10. Food
    I had some grapefruit juice today for the first time. In a glass with ice. Oh, I hated it. It was bad. Really, truly bad. I will never drink it again, if I have a choice. But my major sweet tooth could have a bit of a part to play in my dislike of the stuff. Of course, I don't like grapefruit...
  11. Anorexia Discussions
    I've been plataueing the past two weeks but yesterday I pigged the fuck out and ate at least 600 to 800 calories worth of food. I woke up this morning and have out on a half kilo. I my stomach hurts; the binge wasn't even worth it. And nobody (even my recovering anorexic friend) understands that...
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